[Servo]

Thing is, is not easy. I don't even know where to start, I don't really exactly know what's happening, I just have a general idea. Heck, I don't even know if I have a problem, or much of a problem.

My life's sad, I live in isolation but not because I feel pushed to, I choose to. I have no issues at socializing at all, I can get up every morning and go to the university just right. However my grades are terrible I just get the minimun to pass the assignments. I got bullied a lot when I was a kid, all the way from primary to highschool. I was just too nice. But hey! I'm through with that, I'm okay now as far as bullying goes and the bullying was bad.........but it never got really, really ugly.

My life's a disaster, I live in a bad country, touching the terrible side of things (Venezuela). My parents are disfunctional, my family was disfunctional in general, they live separated and I don't really mind, just trying to give myself a little background. I have two monstrous half brothers I don't interact at all with anymore. I dislike them no end and they see me and my brother (who I don't like all that way much) Like rivals for our dad's coin. I'm 21, my bro is 18 and my half bros are 32 and 30's.

My dad's a drunk, has money, it's all it has. My mother is a victim, hardly does something on her own. (been getting better now that I taught her how to drive) AT HER 55's. There's way more, I don't really know what to tell you.

Did the sanity test, I'm not allowed to post it yet. Says I have depression symptoms, anxiety traits, bad events in my life going on. I can sorta agree with that. Then it says I have an aggravating borderline traits. (a whole 71)
but I don't feel it's true, I did a borderline test and it gave me a 13 only.

Some of my issues do arise from my dislike to where I live, I dislike this place so much that even when this place is generally anti-united states I've managed to learn english on my own, dislike and desire being my teachers. I don't go out unless neccessary because the criminality is way too high (1 violent death every 20 minutes) This is the second most violent country in our continent, and we are just a little bit away from the first position (Honduras).

I also have an overall bad impression of people around here often seeing them as lazy or lackluster and sometimes just plain boring, I'm sure they're not boring but I don't find many people I can relate to. Honestly I can survive without much of that.

I don't smoke, nor drink; nor drugs.

This is all just basic, there's a lot more I'd love to discuss, it's all a huge mess.

[jelly-bean]

Well, you certainly have a lot on your plate right now. Things are very difficult for you there but maybe when you graduate you will be able to find a way to move to a place that you like more or even come here. It doesn't matter how your other brothers behave or whether your father has money. It only matters how you feel about yourself and what you do. Just work on that and the rest will take care of itself.

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by Servo

Thing is, is not easy. I don't even know where to start, I don't really exactly know what's happening, I just have a general idea. Heck, I don't even know if I have a problem, or much of a problem.

My life's sad, I live in isolation but not because I feel pushed to, I choose to. I have no issues at socializing at all, I can get up every morning and go to the university just right. However my grades are terrible I just get the minimun to pass the assignments. I got bullied a lot when I was a kid, all the way from primary to highschool. I was just too nice. But hey! I'm through with that, I'm okay now as far as bullying goes and the bullying was bad.........but it never got really, really ugly.

My life's a disaster, I live in a bad country, touching the terrible side of things (Venezuela). My parents are disfunctional, my family was disfunctional in general, they live separated and I don't really mind, just trying to give myself a little background. I have two monstrous half brothers I don't interact at all with anymore. I dislike them no end and they see me and my brother (who I don't like all that way much) Like rivals for our dad's coin. I'm 21, my bro is 18 and my half bros are 32 and 30's.

My dad's a drunk, has money, it's all it has. My mother is a victim, hardly does something on her own. (been getting better now that I taught her how to drive) AT HER 55's. There's way more, I don't really know what to tell you.

Did the sanity test, I'm not allowed to post it yet. Says I have depression symptoms, anxiety traits, bad events in my life going on. I can sorta agree with that. Then it says I have an aggravating borderline traits. (a whole 71)
but I don't feel it's true, I did a borderline test and it gave me a 13 only.

Some of my issues do arise from my dislike to where I live, I dislike this place so much that even when this place is generally anti-united states I've managed to learn english on my own, dislike and desire being my teachers. I don't go out unless neccessary because the criminality is way too high (1 violent death every 20 minutes) This is the second most violent country in our continent, and we are just a little bit away from the first position (Honduras).

I also have an overall bad impression of people around here often seeing them as lazy or lackluster and sometimes just plain boring, I'm sure they're not boring but I don't find many people I can relate to. Honestly I can survive without much of that.

I don't smoke, nor drink; nor drugs.

This is all just basic, there's a lot more I'd love to discuss, it's all a huge mess.

Wow! Welcome to PC, and I DO hope you stay safe! We're here for you! I wish there were a way for you to get to a less voilent place, but from how you describe it there, it doesn't sound like there's a safe way to do that. I'm here if you need to talk.

[User Name]

After graduation move out of the place. New environment might help you where there will be no influence of past