[geis]

It feels like there's no escape from this horrible anhedonia.

There's really no point to my life. All I do is sit in bed all day. I try to get myself interested in things, but nothing holds my attention. Not TV, movies, books, blogs, knitting, writing...none of the things that used to interest me.

I sleep as much as I can, but eventually I still have to wake up, and I'm back in this bleak, dull world where I have no purpose or meaning.

Nothing helps. I'm not immediately suicidal, but I spend a LOT of time thinking about killing myself because it seems like the only way to escape. I hate this so much.

[jelly-bean]

I think you should get out of bed and go outside. I have the same problems you do but I have found that getting up and moving around helps me. If I go for a walk or get some kind of exercise it sort of wakes up my brain for a while and I can enjoy something for a bit. Maybe it will work for yu too.

[SubliminalThoughts]

I understand where you're coming from. I hate to feel lifeless. I still get like this some days, but wellbutrin usually keeps it away. Just keep fighting through it. Are you taking any medications?

[geis]

jelly-bean, exercise is not really a valid option. I'm disabled and can't stand or walk for very long, so going for a walk means risking collapsing on the side of the road with no one to help me. I know it helps some people, but for me it's too risky.

SubliminalThoughts, the only meds I'm on are for my ulcerative colitis. I've been through nearly every psych med under the sun, and nothing has helped. I even had 29 ECT's. Still incredibly depressed.