Struggling

I had originally joined this summer(june-ish?) and had been posting in the Bipolar Disorder section of the forum. My orignal post is here if you're intereted: http://forums.psychcentral.com/bipol...g-support.html

I have since returned with a new diagnoses and even more feelings of hopelessness and that chronic feeling of being lost and trapped in my own disorder. I have been through two jobs since june and stlil feel unhappy and unsuccessful. I feel sick with guilt and regret and shame. I just want someone to talk to, someone who understands. My mother has cancer and is not doing well. My relationship is a tangled complicated mess. I'm lost, I'm sad and I don't know how to cope or move forward.

I'm sorry your life is so sad for you right now. Is Depression your new diagnosis? Did anyone give you any meds to help you manage it? It takes a while for a new med to kick in and start working. All of us here in the depression forum understand how you are feeling and we are here to listen and try to help and support you. Just start talking and we will listen and figure out how to help.

Hi snow. I am sorry things have been so hard for you. It sounds like you have had a lot to deal with, even if there are no mental health issues. My parents passed away five years ago and I still miss them. It is also difficult with mom having cancer. Is she at the place where you have to take care of her? It is a challenge but yet an honor to care for sick parents.

Depression is a cruel disorder that will make you feel guilt and shame when you have nothing to be ashamed of. I wish I had a good answer to your situation, but I will keep you in my heart and prayers. You can pm me also. Love and hugs

Major Depressive Disorder is the new dx. I am still on my original meds(200mg lamotrigine) I was put on Ciprilex in September and gave it the best I could but was so sick with nausea I couldn't function. I saw my doctor yesterday and have begun pristiq today. My pdoc confirms that there is a lot of negativity in my life I do not have control over and he said no amount of drugs or therapy will fix it but for now I need to learn coping methods until things in my life settle down. much easier said than done. In my family there is so much going on and I am usually the one that has to step up and be "the rock" of the family. I just so desperately want someone to support me and help guide me. I just want someone to help me get motivated to keep going. I feel so alone and no person in my current position has the time nor patience to help me. I feel like I have to suffer in silence and my problems are always deemed less important if they are taken seriously at all. I realize I sound like a whiny teenager but I am a grown woman and I am experiencing real struggle at least the one thing I do know is that I am experiencing emotions a "normal" person would...mine are just overwhelming me.

Depression on top of having to be"the rock" and take care of everything and everyone is rough. You deserve to have support for yourself and you don't sound like a whiny teenager to me. You just have so many difficult things going on.

I certainly hope the new medication helps. I was on antidepressants and migraine meds that had terrible side effects so I understand how that can be. I was on Topamax for migraines and that stuff made me so nauseated. The one bright side was that I lost weight. I'm still fat and could use to lose more weight.

Post here. There are lots of people here who will be understanding and supportive.

Hello snow: I'm sorry you are struggling. Major depression can be a wicked illness. I hope you are seeing a therapist. Medication may also be in order. ECT is also something that can be immensely helpful in some cases. Many people are afraid of it. But it is a pretty gentle process at this point in time; nothing like the way it has been portrayed in the movies.

As you clearly already understand, it is important reach out & find someone to confide in. No one can carry the burden you are carrying alone. Plans for resolving the problems we face in our lives are also important. One of the worst aspects of depression is that it robs us of the will to do the very things we need to do to get well. This is where having a therapist can be helpful. A good therapist can help figure out a plan for managing life challenges. Without such plans, we are simply at the mercy of overwhelming forces at a time in our lives when we are powerless to do battle.

Do also keep posting here on PC. There are many members here who have had experiences similar to yours & who will have helpful insights & suggestions. My best wishes to you.

I am overwhelmed by normal emotions of anger and sadness right now as I was given notice at work, I'm supposed to be grateful that they told me now because they are giving twice the legal minimum period

Try to be kind to yourself and remember that depression means that it is harder to process normal emotions. You're trying your best, concentrate on how much you do rather than the things you think you are not able to do

Hi snow: sorry to hear about your mother, I see that you are in Canada are you on facebook? There is a great FB page that has a lot of support for people dealing with cancer in any capacity. It is called (F) u ck Cancer. I highly recommend it.

Much like you I always feel unhappy and unsuccessful in my career. Have you taken sometime to put some thought into what it is you love to do? Something that has helped me in the past was making a list of things I wanted to accomplish for the day, once I was comfortable with that, I would move to making the list for the week. Sounds silly I know, but might work.