[hoopgirl14]

Hey guys.. so I'm brand new here and I just need to let things off my chest because I have so many emotions bundled up and it's all very confusing.

So I'll start with my history, through high school I battled with self harm and self image issues, mainly cutting and starving myself. I thought I got over those issues after high school, but in the last year I've had a lot of those feelings coming back to me. I have the hardest time coping with any kind of stress, and lately I've been having major anxiety as well. I haven't harmed myself yet, and I really don't want to, but I'm not sure what else I can do. I have tried talking to my boyfriend about it, but he kind of has those feelings of "just get over it."

I recently read a book called "13 reasons why" which is about a teenage girl who commits suicide but beforehand makes audio tapes of the thirteen reasons why she took her life... why I read this book I have no idea, but ever since its just put this thought in my head about death. not that I actually am thinking about it because I'm terrified of death, but just about the idea of it. About the fact that life has to be so j credibly difficult for me, and I don't understand why. I'm really having a hard time lately and I'm scared I'm going to cave in and harm myself at some point.

I feel hopeless, scared, sad, lonely, and completely lifeless. When am I going to get a break?

[jelly-bean]

If you are not in therapy then I think that maybe you should see a doctor and talk about what is bothering you. Your doctor can give you some medication to help you with it or recommend a therapist to you. If you are thinking of harming yourself I think that is the best thing for you to do right now.

[mike99]

yeah, go get psychiatric treatment, self harm can only cause prolonged issues.. it won't help trust me.

[Abe Froman]

A doctor can help.

But you can always let it all out here. We're listening.