[palestrina91]

Hi,

I am 23 yrs old, and I have suffered from depression since I was child. I remember contemplating suicide so many times. I am gay, so I was bullied at school, no friends, and I had to go home to an angry father. I would hide in my room.

For the past 2 years I have been seen by a psychiatrist. I am currently on Prozac 80mg, Seroquel 50mg , Cymbalta 60mg, and Adderall 40mg.

And while they've helped, the deep hole in my chest has never went away, only masked.

I've always wanted a relationship with a guy, but I become so obsessed, clingy, needy. For example, the only guy I dated, I would cry and feel suicidal if he didn't text me back (ugh) I think it has do with my depression and feelings of never feeling loved or wanted.

It's always going to be like that, so I know that no relationship of mine would ever be healthy. I hate this because I want nothing more than to be in a relationship, but who wants someone so needy and clingy...I don't know if it's another disorder or not, but it's killing me.

[puzzclar]

Hi,

I am 26 and have been on at least 13 different medications over the past 9 years. I have been hospitalized 5 times, and thought of suicide often! I've been bullied, hated myself, endured trauma, and yet still don't have a relationship. I know that for that to happen I have to be healthy myself. It takes time and talking but it's worth it!!! Reaching out on here has helped a lot.

Things can ALWAYS be worse!!! The one thing that life has taught me is this, Life takes hard, long work, whether we like it or not.

It may be that you could have PTSD as well, and if that is not treated then things could stay about the same. I was bullied, and have had a hard time accepting things, I'm not an expert, but psychiatrists see you for 15-30 minutes, and therapists get to know the real you, and can see the underlying things, if you can be honest and completely honest. It takes time, but a therapist/counselor can help you with the needy/clingy issues and help with relationships. It's possible to have a full life!!