[VG2012]

My thoughts are kind of scattered so please bear with me-I'm really needing advice and support right now.

As a child, I was sexually abused by 4 different people, grew up in the foster care system, and for 4 years I was extremely physically abused (starved, beaten, tortured) and emotionally abused by a family who had adopted me and my sister and brother. They gave me back to foster care after those 4 years and I spent a long time away from my beloved siblings. Eventually my brother was removed from the home as well and I got to see him again. Unfortunately, he is now a drug dealer and has kidnapped a girl before. When I was 11, I was adopted a second time but to a family that is pretty fractured and emotionally distant. I feel so alone. I've tried to meet good, empathetic people and find the good in the world but there is just so much bad and it hurts to know how many people suffer. I'm in college now and I chose a psychology major which probably wasn't a good choice. While I enjoy psychology, it also shows how messed up people can be.

One of my big struggles is with how disrespected women are and I've always tried to educate the population on that. But about 2 weeks ago when I engaged in a conversation to people on facebook about how stripping and porn are so disrespectful to women and promote the belief that women are just objects, a shockingly large amount of people disagreed and lashed out at me. Even the WOMEN objected and said that they enjoyed stripping and being in porn. This triggered a deep feeling of sadness in my heart that women are ok being used. And a lot of men joined in too. Everyone has been bashing my post for 2 weeks so I finally deleted it. I hadn't had this feeling of the world being a bad place and humans being hopeless in a long time, but this scenerio promoted it again. And now I've been crying and upset and am having a hard time pulling myself out of this depression and negative view of the world. Ever since I survived my first abusive family, my lifelong goal has been to change lives and make a difference, but people don't seem to even want change or help. So I feel like I have lost my purpose. I feel alone

[baseline]

You are not alone! I agree with you! My daughter did a march for Women against rape and they have the same beliefs as you. Those people that bashed you do not have a clue, It's easier for them to defend themselves because they profit from their support of that behavior.
Big hugs to you. You are courageous for trying to increase awareness for a population that is often ignored!!!

[Fuzzybear]