[bear cub01]

I have been dealing with intense anxiety and severe depression these past few months. I was coping with no medication while I was at school by taking long walks and watching sports. Once, I got home I started on Zoloft and it made my life so much worse. I feel like I totally lost who I was while I was on the medication. I know literally feel like I'm in darkness whenever it is dark outside, it has made my life pretty bleak. After two weeks, the doctor changed me onto Effexor and I'm absolutely terrified that this will make me feel even worse. The first night on Effexor, I stayed up the entire night with heart palpitations. These past few weeks have been extremely brutal. Does anyone out there go through what I did or have any advice for me.

Best,
DQ

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Bear Cub01. I suggest you document everything you are feeling and experiencing with these med trials and inform your prescribing doctor regularly. Don't hesitate to call if you feel particularly bad.

Have you continued to have the heart palpitations? Frequently (not always), the initial side effects of medications wear off after a while. Heart palpitations, though, are something to take seriously.

[Fuzzybear]

[bear cub01]

I think the problem with the medication is that I am convinced that there is way that I can ever feel "normal" again. I just feel like I have lost myself along the way and forgot who I am. I literally don't remember anything that has happened the past few weeks. I feel like I am living day to day, not totally realizing that tomorrow will happen. I just feel lost and don't know how to be found again.

[vital]

Originally Posted by bear cub01

I have been dealing with intense anxiety and severe depression these past few months. I was coping with no medication while I was at school by taking long walks and watching sports. Once, I got home I started on Zoloft and it made my life so much worse. I feel like I totally lost who I was while I was on the medication. I know literally feel like I'm in darkness whenever it is dark outside, it has made my life pretty bleak. After two weeks, the doctor changed me onto Effexor and I'm absolutely terrified that this will make me feel even worse. The first night on Effexor, I stayed up the entire night with heart palpitations. These past few weeks have been extremely brutal. Does anyone out there go through what I did or have any advice for me.

Best,
DQ

Hi Bear Cub,

My best advice for depression is in post #74 of this thread

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html

- vital