[Steiner of Thule]

I feel the melancholy a lot. I almost wanted to name my username on here Steiner Melancholic. I end up sitting in my head at work and the nice days sort of depress me. A constant sweat from the heat and moving about. How empty life is. I feel it deep inside and I can't seem to escape it. A constant flow of people I have to deal with. Asking them how they are and when they ask me how I am I always say-

"I'm good! :-)"

At some points when the store is empty I take a moment and stare out the window. A lot of the time throughout the day. Unexplained sadness.

Though I don't hate the sadness. It sort of comforts me in a way. A comforting sadness. I almost wish the feeling would never go away. It makes everything feel deeper. Is it good to feel this way I tend to wonder about myself. To enjoy the sadness.

It's accompanied by drifting suicidal thoughts. Probably not a good side effect. Maybe I'll just get to a point where I accept everything as it is. Able to leave the world, at peace with myself.

How blue.

[Rohag]

Profound thoughts.

Originally Posted by Steiner of Thule

A constant sweat from the heat and moving about.

Real not figurative heat?

[Fuzzybear]

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Profound thoughts.

Real not figurative heat?

A mixture of both actual heat and heat from people.