[madmusican]

I cant take it anymore

I am lower than I have ever been. Seen my CPN today (Community Psychiatric Nurse) and have had my meds upped. I can;t eat, I cant sleep, I cant work at the moment, I just cant do anything

I cant take this anymore

I went for a counselling assessment on monday and am now waiting to be refered to a counsellor. They said it would get better, everyone i have seen. "It'll get better when u have some time off work" "It'll get better when u start on ur tablets" "It'll get better when u start counselling" NO IT HASNT. I am still feeling like I was, if not worse. Sinking lower than I have ever been

it has got to the point where I can take no more

No more pain
No more hurt
No more anger
No more hate
No more hoping
No more wishing
No more praying
No more surviving

No more

[Reesie]

Well, one thing is true: increased medication takes time to get built up in your body. If meds were just increased today, you CAN hope for improvement soon. For some, it takes longer than others.

((((((((((((((madmusician))))))))))))))

[madmusican]

no point in hoping, been hoping for far too long now

feel so selfish, i shouldnt be whinging and moaning when others have real problems. I should just sort my head out and shut up sorry

(((((((((((((((((9MM)))))))))))))))))))))))

HEY BABY COME ON YOU CAN DO THIS. GIVE YOUR MEDS CHANCE TO WORK, PM ME ANYTIME, YOU ARE STRONG, REMEMBER WHAT YOU SAID TO ME ABOUT BEING STRONG AND HANGIN IN THERE?

HOLDING YOUR HAND SWEETIE

LOVE

[Direction]

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I cant take it anymore
. They said it would get better, everyone i have seen. "It'll get better when u have some time off work" "It'll get better when u start on ur tablets" "It'll get better when u start counselling" NO IT HASNT. I am still feeling like I was, if not worse. Sinking lower than I have ever been

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Patience not something I like to here either. I've been low before very low requiring hospitalization twice...

I can say that you are starting something at age seventeen that I didn't start until I was double that. You are going to be that much more ahead of the game.

[madmusican]

I'm not 17! I'm 24

[Reesie]

It wasn't until I replied to your post, I remembered I'm waiting for increased med. dose to kick in, myself. My antidepressant was just increased 5 days ago and I'm hoping for a change.

I've been down for so long. . . .

So you're 24. That's the age that my son is. I'll be hoping that you'll be better by the time I am (next week) !

[Direction]

Sorry madmusican - I was confused - I tend to get that way...Still you are starting 10 years earlier than I did

[madmusican]

have taken the day off work, can't go in arms a mess, i am a mess. have an appt with nurse to see if she will patch me up

i have told my hub and my CPN that i really cant take any more of this but no one seems to be listening

i just want it all to stop

(sorry direction didnt mean to make that sound like i was having a go)

[Perna]

Hope the nurse patches you up and gives you a little warmth and hope. I look hard for warmth and hope wherever I can find them when I'm that down. I've been known to be grateful to the hair stylist when she's washing my hair, enjoyed the head massage like it's been the only care I've had in ages.

Can you find a good book to read, something substantial but comforting? Ever read any Elizabeth Goudge, Rumer Godden, Miss Read?