[waterknob1234]

I have not been here for a couple of days. I am being made to work 12 to 13 hours a day. I am exhausted. I have migraine headaches. We had a meeting yesterday where we were told we will have to do more work with less resources. I am getting where I can't remember things and I can't think straight. I am tired. Today I made a small mistake and I got berated by the head doctor. I told him I have had enough and just to fire me. Guess what? I didn't get fired. I suppose I should consider that good.

I can't take this anymore mentally or physically.

[Ruftin]

(((waterknob))) I just had this same conversation with my sister the other day. I work 12 hour shifts at my medical facility, minimal staff, no lunch, no breaks, no support and unbelievable stress. No time to even drink a cup of water to re hydrate. I come home too tired to eat and just fall into bed in a coma like state for 4 hours each day just trying to recuperate. Losing weight right and left. I'm a shell of my former self as they suck the life out of me on a daily basis.

I've been standing up for myself lately and would you believe it showed up on my evaluation. Needs to be willing to work along side coworkers and offer to help them when needed. I can't even help myself. I've been waiting to get fired but that has not happened. I'm glad you were able to stand up for yourself.

((((((((((waterknob))))))))

[waterknob1234]

I wish I could lose weight. I have gained weight even though lots of times I don't get time to eat lunch. All of us in the nursing area are trying to find another job. My job is sucking the life out of me, literally.

I have had enough. I suppose they won't fire us. They will just work us until we drop and then replace us with another robot.

I am thankful for your friendship and support. Through all of this my self-esteem has been kicked to the curb.

[lifelies]

I am feeling the same... but towards school... We're in pre med school and I can't take this anymore... Thanks god we're in spring break... But i'll break down when school starts again
Allie

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( waterknob ))))))

Grrrr

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I'm sorry . This doctor sounds beyond insensitive (probably "narcissistic" - no offence intended but I wonder about doctors IRL who seem to have that tendency (could it be they are in the wrong job?? ). I send you warmth and care, please take care of you, you're such a good person

[Frankbtl]

Hi waterknob, I'm imagining "miserable" is a big understatement, right??
And it's not surprising you made a mistake when you're so emotionally and physically drained, but well done you on standing up for yourself, is there any possibility you could carry that on and push for less hours?? At least some less hours??
It's not really disputable that most people working that many hours aren't going to be "working their best".........and in your line of work. Hope you're still keeping the option open not to stay though, got to put yourself, and your mental well-being above a job at times.
And your self-esteem being kicked to the curb............hope you're not forgetting how much we really value and appreciate you on here!!!
Alison

[TheOriginalMe]

(((((((Waterknob))))))

[waterknob1234]

I appreciate everyone's support. Today was much better. The head doctor was out doing surgery and I worked with another doctor who was easier to get along with. Of course this doctor had his tantrums this morning but he gets out of bad moods quickly and then he is very friendly. Also, this other doctor doesn't make things so personal. He will just get aggravated with a bad situation but he doesn't personally insult you and tear you down. It was an easier day.

This morning I was brooding about the meanness of the head doctor and the raw anger I was feeling. Anger is not right. And here it is Holy Week. In my heart I have to forgive the head doctor and I am praying for the grace and strength to do that. I cannot take communion on Easter Sunday with anger in my heart.

Today I got off work at a decent hour. The migraine I have had for four days went away. I am told they have hired a person to help out. I still don't plan to stay there. I am still going to be searching for a more tolerable job. At least today was better and I feel like my prayers are being heard.

[Ruftin]

(((waterknob))) I'm glad you had a better day!!! I hope tomorrow goes the same.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((( waterknob ))))))))

[Frankbtl]

Hi waterknob, really pleased for you that you had a better day!! You deserved it!!!
And hopefully this new person will work out, at least for the time you're there. Sounds like yours and your colleagues working conditions/the pressure/the unfair expectations must have been recognized somewhere up there by management??
As for letting the anger go/forgiving that doctor.......maybe that could start with trying to accept "his weakness"??? Afterall it was a weakness not being able to treat others/you in a "respectful" manner??? Just a thought.
And you are going to try to stand up for yourself again, if it happens again, right??!!

Alison

(((Waterknob)))

[SeekerOfLife]