Drowning

Steiner of Thule · Apr 18, 2015, 12:14 AM

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Originally Posted by Ruth4k

I am so sorry you feel that way. Dying is hard work. It isn't simple. The planning, the execution, what if it doesn't work? You will have the hard task of recovery. If you do succeed, you will put someone or other on a position where they must figure stuff out. I'm sorry it feels hard and undesirable to live. Nothing external will make you want to live. Bad situations are recurring all through life. The point is that, that's not all, that's not all life needs to be. Please hold on and actually allow yourself to work towards something.

Yes it is hard work. It takes a bit of impulse I'd feel. I know the shame that comes from it not working.

No pleasure in everyday life. Alone with no one to talk to everyday. I put my work face on and go to work. I do my normal robot motions everyday. I get my "real" communication from online people but I've done this for years now. Talking to online people to fill a void.

These people aren't real. They are all so fake. Every single person is fake. The real world they are more fake even. Everyone is so fake. All lies. The ones that try to get close are the biggest liars of all.

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