[LLove90]

I'm almost 25. I have been unemployed almost a year now. I have attended (and dropped out of) 3 different colleges. I live with my boyfriend and he pays for everything. I feel like a huge loser and failure. I have rejected the idea of depression and medicine over and over but I feel like it's time I stop lying to myself. I'm at the point where I am so embarrassed of myself and my life that I stay home and avoid people as much as possible. I get so tired of the question "so what are you doing now?" since "nothing" is a humiliating response. I feel like I'm not intelligent enough for school. I also don't feel any motivation or drive to even try anymore. I just feel so stupid compared to everyone else so I get frustrated and give up. I have no real skills. I can't even get through job interviews without getting extremely anxious. I feel like my life is going nowhere and I hate myself. All I do anymore is sleep and watch tv. I don't even keep my house clean which is pathetic since I have nothing else to do all day.

So I guess I'm here asking for advice. I'm scared and embarrassed to go to my doctor. I don't know how to ask for help or bring up the topic of depression. I'm afraid I will start crying and embarrass myself even more. Could anyone please help me figure out the next step?

[kaliope]

well it would be ok to start crying as that would support the depression. basically you tell the dr what you stated here. or you could start with a therapist and be evaluated for depression there and if they think meds are in order then they could refer you to the doc. sometimes just talking about whaat is going on can be a big help.

[puzzclar]

Talking does help. I'd start there first at least that is what I did first. Learning skills can help

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, LLove90. The symptoms you mention and their severity could indicate depression. To be safe, I suggest you talk to a doctor and look at the full range of possibilities, including anemia, thyroid problems, etc. Depression can be intertwined with other illnesses.

Please make yourself at home.

[vital]

Originally Posted by LLove90

I'm almost 25. I have been unemployed almost a year now. I have attended (and dropped out of) 3 different colleges. I live with my boyfriend and he pays for everything. I feel like a huge loser and failure. I have rejected the idea of depression and medicine over and over but I feel like it's time I stop lying to myself. I'm at the point where I am so embarrassed of myself and my life that I stay home and avoid people as much as possible. I get so tired of the question "so what are you doing now?" since "nothing" is a humiliating response. I feel like I'm not intelligent enough for school. I also don't feel any motivation or drive to even try anymore. I just feel so stupid compared to everyone else so I get frustrated and give up. I have no real skills. I can't even get through job interviews without getting extremely anxious. I feel like my life is going nowhere and I hate myself. All I do anymore is sleep and watch tv. I don't even keep my house clean which is pathetic since I have nothing else to do all day.

So I guess I'm here asking for advice. I'm scared and embarrassed to go to my doctor. I don't know how to ask for help or bring up the topic of depression. I'm afraid I will start crying and embarrass myself even more. Could anyone please help me figure out the next step?

Hi Love,

Here's my best advice:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

- vital