[annoyedgrunt84]

Everyone's tired of me feeling sorry for myself, everyone's tired of me whining about how life doesn't make sense to me. The thing about it is so am I. The weird thing I have noticed is how comfortable misery can become. I know I create all my own problems, I just don't know how to stop. I try to keep up my friendships, but my former closest friends all now live at least 4 or 5 hours away. I just never know what to say when I talk to them, I can either lie and tell them I'm fine, or be the downer when I tell them how I really feel. I'm just tired of it, all of it.

[Keyslost]

It sucks when those old anchors decide they don't want to help anymore or even listen or physically can't. You do have us to talk to though. You can msg me if you want to and I'll msg you with crap that's bad in my life . Then when we're all good again we can keep the good people and get rid of the bad. Then if the bad come back you can tell them you have a new support system. Now I don't mean to say start cutting people out of your life but it will happen naturally when you focus your attention on those who help you instead of cut you down. Hang in there buddy

[Fuzzybear]

[annoyedgrunt84]

One of the things that's bothering me right now is maintaining the changes I have made. For example, in the last 15 months I've lost about 65 pounds. Now I keep thinking that if I make other changes I know I need to make in my life it might screw up my exercise routine I've started and I'll start packing on the pounds again.

[vishee15]

Everyone is not tired of you, its just that you are tired of yourself, or rather put it in a better way you have done things and got yourself to the point of being tired of your own self. And it seems as though the whole world is "tired of you". Notice the quotes. This is because it not real, it is only a way of dealing with your real self and situations around you, perhaps all the responsibilities you've taken on.

For example you did all that to lose so much weight and now it has become a burden to keep the weight loss. See, this responsibility has screwed you over.

What you need to do is to not give a ****, **** it if you gain weight, it don't matter. There are much more detrimental things that happen. And this might not even be the only example. You may know of all the other responsibilities that burden you.

What i suggest is, **** all the responsibilities and take a break, smoke some weed. The relax yourself and mind, and when you start to come back into the responsible world, pick responsibilities that will not harm you the way these current ones have done to you.

TC <3

[Clara22]

Hi,
Anxiety cripples us. You are right when you say you could pack the pounds again. It is not because of that you are unable of keeping your weight on track. You are at risk of packing back given the nature of losing weight. It is a fact that many people pack back. And you already have solutions to it: you need to keep your program: exercise and other healthy habits. You have more achievements ahead and you are afraid that new endeavors will take time or energy from your dedication to keeping weight loss. I think it is normal to feel anxious about it but anxiety cripples us. Perhaps a counselor could help you to establish priorities and keep track on things. I know it is difficult to have faith in oneself. If you can, give yourself more credit. You are very insightful. I would pay attention to anxiety, it makes us to eat more, among other things.
About friends, I have few friends in real life I can talk about my depression and anxiety. But in this place, I feel understood. Please keep posting. You matter

[annoyedgrunt84]

I'm really starting to think my problem is my family has just coddled to me. I'm sort of like a fly that's had all it's legs and wings pulled off. It can't do anything for itself. That's how I feel.