[stace89]

hi,i first got diagnosed with depression and anxiety when i was 15, now ten years later,several diagnosis changes,a lot of medication changes and still nothings getting better.The past 3 years have been hell,my mind wont shut off,i get really depressed for long periods then have times were i feel great and do a lot of writing,usually alittle delusional aswell then theres times were it feels im experiencing all emotions at once,i get really irrated over nothing at times but i feel justified about and the guilt i feel for feeling this way is crippling at times.At the moment i'm not even sure what my diagnosis is, i see a psychiatrist every 3 months for about 40 minutes. i was going to psychotherapy every week but after week 8 i stopped going as i felt the woman was pushing things on me, trying to use my past as the reason for me being the way i am, tho i didn't agree with her and told her this several times, she always said it would make sense if you felt this way due to this happening in your childhood or so on. my mum has done a lot of research and speaks to a nurse she works with about this and is convinced i'm bipolar,when i read about it, it felt like everything clicked into place so i mentioned it to my doctor who just brushed it off with "you shouldn't be trying to self diagnose". i honestly don't know what to do now.

Duloxetine 60mg
Quetiapine 300mg

Hello Stace89: Mental illness can be so confusing. There are so many possible diagnoses. And it seems like every mental health professional one sees will have a different take on what the appropriate diagnosis is.

I've never actually received a diagnosis. I have a psychiatrist who sees me for about 10 minutes every two or three months. This may come to an end soon too since I've now gone off of the Duloxetine I was on. At this point, I don't plan to start anything new. I've seen quite a few therapists over the years as well. But they never seemed to be of much benefit.

From my perspective, it is perhaps unfortunate your psychiatrist chastised you for attempting to shed some light of your own on your struggles. She's correct that you can't diagnose yourself. But, on the other hand, you're clearly not getting allot of answers elsewhere. I've believed, for quite some time, that there was a time I could have been diagnosed as having Borderline Personality Disorder. But, any professionals I've seen have just brushed this off &, in it's place, given me nothing.

I don't know what the answer is to this. But I just wanted to share my experiences with you as a way of hopefully letting you know that you are not alone with regard to these experiences. My best wishes to you.

I'd find a new doctor that would listen to me instead of dismissing me.

[stace89]

Thank you very much for sharing, it is good to know someone else has gone through the same sort of thing.

It is really frustrating when you feel you're not being heard. Hopefully next appointment goes better.

[stace89]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I'd find a new doctor that would listen to me instead of dismissing me.

I'm looking into it though the waiting lists are crazy.

[vital]

Originally Posted by stace89

hi,i first got diagnosed with depression and anxiety when i was 15, now ten years later,several diagnosis changes,a lot of medication changes and still nothings getting better.The past 3 years have been hell,my mind wont shut off,i get really depressed for long periods then have times were i feel great and do a lot of writing,usually alittle delusional aswell then theres times were it feels im experiencing all emotions at once,i get really irrated over nothing at times but i feel justified about and the guilt i feel for feeling this way is crippling at times.At the moment i'm not even sure what my diagnosis is, i see a psychiatrist every 3 months for about 40 minutes. i was going to psychotherapy every week but after week 8 i stopped going as i felt the woman was pushing things on me, trying to use my past as the reason for me being the way i am, tho i didn't agree with her and told her this several times, she always said it would make sense if you felt this way due to this happening in your childhood or so on. my mum has done a lot of research and speaks to a nurse she works with about this and is convinced i'm bipolar,when i read about it, it felt like everything clicked into place so i mentioned it to my doctor who just brushed it off with "you shouldn't be trying to self diagnose". i honestly don't know what to do now.

Duloxetine 60mg
Quetiapine 300mg

Dear stace,

I am getting angry even reading about your story. What these idiots are doing for you isn't working. They probably don't care. They will probably never change. It's up to you. Get active. Actively search for and try things that could help. For depression, just the act of actively trying to get better by your own efforts helps. There are many resources on the internet and at this site. Here is my own best advice as an overall plan:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4162657-post74.html

Many of the things to try to help depression happen to be great for your health anyway and will probably work better than your current "treatment".

It's so important. I am really rooting for you. Keep in touch. this is a friendly place and you can get lots of good advice here.

- vital

Thank you for sharing stace89. I have been diagnosed with a variety of illnesses over the years. If you pay using insurance they must have given you a diagnosis or I doubt they are getting paid. I would come right and ask what it is.

I have a therapist who always wanted to focus on my childhood. Yes this can be important, but it wasn't important to me anymore. I've done a lot of that work with other therapists. I had to explain to her (more than once) that I don't care that my father gave me my first beer at 8 years old. I want to focus on what I am feeling today. How can you help me live today. If my past comes up, it comes up, but we both have to agree to discuss it. It is not her decision alone. Maybe by hanging out here you will learn many things that will be helpful. For example, the therapist works for you, you do not work for her.

Keep sharing it was nice to hear from you.

[Fuzzybear]

[stace89]

Thank you all for your kind advice. This past year has been hell but i finally stood my ground and demanded better care from my doctors...and it worked. Its going slow but its a start and knowing i was the only person to feel neglected in regards to patient care. i attend therapy every week and have been put on a new combination of meds so im hoping its a step in the right direction.