Back on PC - Hope for good.

I'll try to keep this as short as I can. But it is summarizing my life from when I went inactive on pc to now. Hope all you guys are doing alright and still hanging in. Hugs to you all.

My life went spinning out of control about January 2015. I mean, it was not in control or decent before but around January time I started not having a second to breath let alone think or recoup myself. What i did all this time? My business job some other stuff I needed and still need to work through and mostly dealing with my "responsibilities" to my family. Being abused and guilted by them. Being forced to be there for them at all times, sometimes 10 places at one time.
Fast forward to March time I was finally hitting a breaking point, I didn't know what I'll do but I knew I needed to take action.
End of March my family (parents) decided I needed to go to the other end of the world to help out family. I would take of 3 weeks of work and go help family since they themselves couldn't. So I obviously went, I didn't enjoy it but I think it gave me perspective.

I think I realized, I have the power to say no and to stand up to my rights regarding my family. I have the right to lead my own life. I am allowed to put them as secondary or later in my life.

I took a step, I acknowledged that things don't need to be this way. Yet now I need to change it. I need to act upon it.

However since I came to this conclusion my anxiety is terrible. I keep having attacks randomly throughout the day. I can barely think while at work. I don't eat nor sleep (but that's not knew). I can't carry a conversation and the only thing I can repeatedly do now is drink myself to oblivion.

I'm lost, what am I supposed to do? Action yes or no? Continue life like before Or? What's it worth anyway.

Glad to have you back on PC.

First thing is start cutting back on alcohol if possible or join 12 step program like AA. That is hurting your body and making life difficult.

Have anxiety try this simple exercise anyone can do. Inhale naturally and internally count 1 Exhale naturally and internally count 2 continue up to 10 and start again at 1.

It is difficult to focus on anxiety or worries if you focus on counting and breath.

Many people who are actively involved in Psych Central find it helps take them out of their own problems to develop empathy for others. And their problems though still there are more manageable.

There are lots of compassionate people here that can make the load lighter by sharing and caring. Feel free to participate actively at Psych Central. Some people find the forums give them the compassion and empathy they seek. http://forums.psychcentral.com

Please feel free to private message me or any of the Community Liaisons by left clicking on the name in blue to the left of their post) for questions or just to share.

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Do you have a therapist? If not that would be the place to start, stand up to your family on just that one thing and hopefully it will repay you by giving you the coping methods to manage your anxiety and the skills to help you move to a better, stronger place within your family.

Welcome back, you have made big changes so anxiety is inevitable and normal. Remember, people don't die from panic attacks, it just feels like it. I found knowing that helps me step back, control my breathing and find a way through. Coping in a small way helps your confidence for the next step. Best wishes and kind regards

Welcome back!!!

hello and welcome back to PC

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You've declared war on your social, emotional programming. I wish you success. What kind of help or "restructuring" do you need to win this fight?

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Hello and welcome back. I understand anxiety attacks as I fall prey to them as well. Sometimes you have to stand up to family because they will run you crazy with no thought to your personal well being. Are you able to see a therapist or counselor? You are a good person and I wish you all the best.

Welcome back to PC!