[jefftele]

despite the lighthearted title my depression is returning ,no triggers just the old' if i had a job i,d be ok, ' last week i felt ok this damn obsession with returning to work is my sticking point i feel anxiety is mixed in,i do the old black/white thinking bit ,what if i do go back and i get ill ?,the thought of work makes me ill, i set in motion ,i'll not get work,and even if i got work what would happen if i get ill.some folk say forget work as i have got a recurrnt illness others say the opposite trouble is i don't know which one is right i am like a ship lost at sea,i have had therapy about this,took medication on and off but so far not got a resolution,at times i feel this will destroy me as i get so tired of the constant 'i'd be ok if i had a job',am i just plain barmy? and should i make friends with my constant inner chatter? help!!

jeff, so sorry you are feeling so bad. i am just a pm away if you need to talk.

take care, this will get better i promise.

love ya, jinny xoxoxoxoxo

[jefftele]

thanks kerry my head was all over the place yesterday, today i'm not so bad ,what a difference a day makes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xx

[Wants2Fly]

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jefftele said:
if i had a job i,d be ok,

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Yeah, me too

it's always worse when i'm not working. even as hard as it is to work, i'm better if busy..............

[Amanda__44]

i thought my depression was going away and it isnt and i hav no idea wat to do and its just so damn confusing because i dont understant why im like this but it hurts so much and i cant seem to communicate to anyone how much pain im in

[Wants2Fly]

I'm sorry that you, too, are hurting Amanda. So many of us here are.