[not quite right]

Why is it the things that are in our best interests the hardest things to do? I can't comprehend why our love and lives are repaid to us in suffering. And when we can't bear anything more, we're left with sadness and regret. And nothing is harder than moving on, even when it's all that you are able to do. Let it go and move on. It's simple in knowing what needs to happen, but it's much harder to complete the actual severing of all that you have known for so long. And being brave enough to stand alone. I'm plagued by the fear that my unhappiness was my doing all along, that I am not capable of being anything but miserable. When you stand alone, there's only you to blame. I'm going to take these steps, and truly hope I have enough left of myself to have a life on my terms, with a hope for a future where I'm not trapped in someone else's nightmares. And maybe to enjoy my well earned peace of mind. It's time to get on with living, and stop merely existing. My success or failure in my hands alone. Please wish me luck.

[vital]

Originally Posted by not quite right

Why is it the things that are in our best interests the hardest things to do? I can't comprehend why our love and lives are repaid to us in suffering. And when we can't bear anything more, we're left with sadness and regret. And nothing is harder than moving on, even when it's all that you are able to do. Let it go and move on. It's simple in knowing what needs to happen, but it's much harder to complete the actual severing of all that you have known for so long. And being brave enough to stand alone. I'm plagued by the fear that my unhappiness was my doing all along, that I am not capable of being anything but miserable. When you stand alone, there's only you to blame. I'm going to take these steps, and truly hope I have enough left of myself to have a life on my terms, with a hope for a future where I'm not trapped in someone else's nightmares. And maybe to enjoy my well earned peace of mind. It's time to get on with living, and stop merely existing. My success or failure in my hands alone. Please wish me luck.

Good luck NQR.

I think that not being able to move on and being plagued by regrets or guilt, being unable to enjoy being alive - these are all directly understandable symptoms of the underlying thing which I believe causes depression:

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

- vital

[Fizzyo]

Hi notquiteright thank you for sharing, you show such courage standing there and facing an uncertain future. I'm rooting for you and hope you find a way forward.
Be kind to yourself

[waterknob1234]

Hi notquiteright. We so often wonder why we have to face all these hardships in life. Moving on can be hard but can be good. I am rooting for you as well. I wish you all the best. And know that you are not alone, we are with you.

[not quite right]

I know this is what has to happen, and I know one day I'll remember this as the day I took my life back, and did the right thing, not the easy thing. I thank you all for your support.

[vital]

Originally Posted by not quite right

I know this is what has to happen, and I know one day I'll remember this as the day I took my life back, and did the right thing, not the easy thing. I thank you all for your support.

If so, this is a very good day indeed. Let us know how it goes if you can - vital