[ak482]

I wish I could stop screwing up every damn thing in my life. I screwed up ANOTHER date because I can't pick up on cues. Why am I so messed up that it has to be beaten over me with a sledgehammer to get it? And I f----d up on a job interview because I was too worried about my body language.

All I hear is be yourself. Well being myself is being a brain dead 33 year old loveless virgin. Kill me now if this is how it must be. I can't have one good thing happen over sustained time.

[vital]

Originally Posted by ak482

I wish I could stop screwing up every damn thing in my life. I screwed up ANOTHER date because I can't pick up on cues. Why am I so messed up that it has to be beaten over me with a sledgehammer to get it? And I f----d up on a job interview because I was too worried about my body language.

All I hear is be yourself. Well being myself is being a brain dead 33 year old loveless virgin. Kill me now if this is how it must be. I can't have one good thing happen over sustained time.

Hi ak. I think it's a rare person who can be depressed and successfully socialize, get new jobs and that sort of thing. People are really good at sensing that something is very wrong with you even if they don't know what it is exactly. If you have the means to survive, I think that the best thing to do by far is to get yourself un-depressed as quickly as possible. It helps a lot to understand how it works:

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

and here's what I think is the best overall plan:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

- vital

[Living Dead Guy]

While on a date if you are confused just ask. The first time I had sex I wasn't sure if she was interested in me so I just asked if she wanted to have sex seeing as I'd never had it before (at least willingly) To ny suprise she grinned and well I'm sure you can imagine the rest.

I've never been good with job interviews. As you can imagine it doesn't help when they go to shake you hand and you step back looking like you are ready to kill them if they touch you.

We all make mistakes usually the same ones over and over. Try not to beat yourself up, instead if something doesn't work try something different. Also there is one good thing you found Psychcentral forums

[waterknob1234]

Hi ak482. I am so sorry you are going thru this. I know in my heart someday you are going to meet the right lady and get the right job. But right now I know it looks hard. Being unemployed, or employed in a job that makes you miserable is so difficult. I sometimes wonder if the more anxiety we have, the worse things are and do others pick up on this? Don't know.

But we are your friends and we are here for you.

[ak482]

Well it's official, I blew the job opportunity. Since it's a state job, it probably is a quota fill doesn't mean I didn't screw up. 2 years of work doesn't mean s--t i guess. Not if I can't handle one job interview.

WHY AM I ALWAYS SO F-----G TENSE ABOUT EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE

[lonely-and-sad]

I am with you. Not only do i screw up everything. I wreck anything good in my life.

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