[themusikhurts]

I'm finally done with high school! I no longer have to deal with those jerks and immature idiots. I graduate on thursday.

I get to see my family whom I haven't seen in like forever!

I'm on anti-depressants.

I'm working a lot... but I am making good money, so I know it's not the finances that are bothering me.

I just can't figure it out. Maybe Matt, maybe my father. But I think I have been dealing with my losses fairly well considering. I think I am close to closure. I don't think it's that that's bothering me.

I'm actually OK with the weight I am at right now, haven't purged in about a month.

I'm single and feel kinda lonely, but not terribly. I just. . .

ugh! I'm not scared about entering the world or graduating or anything. So, I really don't know what it is. I just feel so. . . BLAH! I can't pick myself up.

It's almost like my life is just OK right now, and I am SICK AND TIRED of just being mediocre! I hate that. I want to be successful and prosper in life. Could that be what is keeping me down??

Could it be the anti-depressants?? I have always taken Lexapro and it ALWAYS helps. Should I ask to up the dose?

It could be that your isolating yourself from the world?? Your remark about others being jerks and immature idiots strikes me as a way of you appearing different from them? SOmehow better? I use to do this and still can because underneath that is fear! Maybe you need to look at that?

[Wants2Fly]

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It could be that your isolating yourself from the world?? Your remark about others being jerks and immature idiots strikes me as a way of you appearing different from them? SOmehow better? I use to do this and still can because underneath that is fear! Maybe you need to look at that?

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What mouse said. Hope you feel better soon. Hugs and hugs.