[Robyn222]

That is how I feel. I just lost my support group. I started a new job and am interviewing for a better paying one. So I feel very unstable in job terms many hours of the day. My most beloved dog Beau will have died 2 years ago June 10. I have a profession but there aren't many good jobs available and so I have struggled terribly financially much of the last several years. I bought this house with an inheritance from my Mother and the job situation nearly cost me my house. I was not a good steward of the money so the struggle. I miss my dog something awful. I tried 2 other dogs and it was not a good experience. Some say that dogs sometimes return to their owners and a part of me has thought that might happen. But as I approach 2 years without Beau I am so very very sad. I fear I will not see him until I die. That could be decades. I always believed we were meant to be together forever. I know that defies logic--but it is a deep belief I have and maybe is true at some level. I get annuities for 2 more years that combined with piddly pay barely let me get by. I need to make more money in 2 and a half years or I will lose my house. I won't be able to afford it. I never imagined living anywhere else in my life. I love this house so much. It is so dear to me. My heart breaks at the thought of leaving it. I don't know If I could stand it. Truly. This is the house that Beau and I lived in for 10 years together. I still feel as close as is possible to him here. I am just SO SAD and so fearful of the future. I know if you mention the word prayer you are supposed to be in the spiritual section. But I find that silly. Most of this is about my life as a depressed person. Those of you comfortable with prayer, I accept your prayers gladly. Thank you all for listening and if you can relate or have an insight please share.

[Fuzzybear]

[Wants2Fly]

Hello Robyn -- I understand. I have gone through some very bad periods financially, and I am always in terror of being homeless.

Is your house large enough so that you could rent a bedroom to someone nice?

[mlpHolmes]

Hi Robyn

Wow sounds like your going through so many changes. Your strength is admirable!! You will have so many new opportunities opening up to you too. Be Aware! Good Luck

[Robyn222]

I actually tried to do that at one point but had no bites. If I did do that again I would advertise on craigslist. I can just make it now. But, OH how I hate it and question WHY???
But, it sounds like you got to the other side and that is encouraging!!!

[Wants2Fly]

Robyn, I have a very small cushion, but if I don't get another job or sources of income soon, I will be on the ropes again soon enough.

((((((((Robyn&Beau))))))))))))))
I'm sorry you lost your little buddy. Try to remain positive about the house. Can you find a second job? Is that possible with your schedule?
I hope you find a solution to this.

[meander]

Robyn,

It's sad about Beau. I still miss my dog too. I'm not sure how helpful it would be, but maybe you could try a cat or a bird or a different animal, not to replace Beau, but for companionship.

I could give you one of my goldfish if you like too :-)

Hope you come through all right :-)