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Jul 08, 2015, 03:16 PM
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Good grief... I can't believe what is happening. Glad I have a sense of humor!
I don't post because I don't want others to know how severe depression can get but... If I can't share here, then where? 30-years of depression, C-PTSD treatment. In the last 7-years, I have not had one moment of any pleasurable emotions or feelings...nothing. 30 different drugs, none work at all anymore. In the last year after enduring non-stop sui thoughts and planning I have done Neurofeedback, 36 treatments of TMS and ECT along with IOP and weekly counseling, none of which has offered me any relief at all. Can't work, spend my life in isolation, my family & friends have all stopped calling ARGGG, really miss them all.  I've spent the last 16-weeks tapering off 1 mg Klonapin in order to try Ketamine Infusions. After 2-weeks of being off the Klonapin, I developed a headache, then 6 full nights of not sleeping, tremors, constant chest pain, nausea, sweating, I finally went to the ER, they gave me Ambien which also didn't work. I've been clean and sober 34-years but I would much rather detox off of heroin than detox off Klonapin...horrible! Oh yeah, almost forgot... Been dealing with a pancreatic tumor all year as well... But as I told the cancer doc, " Pancreatic Cancer is the least of my concerns, depression is more likely to kill me first!" (I certainly don't feel sorry for myself, many others here have equally as many issues as I do...) I'm scheduled to fly to the mainland this Saturday for treatment... I'm hanging on for dear life and praying the Ketamine does something/anything. Any suggestions to help me hang in there would be very appreciated... Don't know how much more I can take before my sense of humor disappears.
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DX: MDD- Treatment refractory depression Total Anhedonia C-PTSD Hashimoto's Thyroiditis RX:FINALLY- found a doc to prescribe an MAOI!!  Nardil (MAOI) Lithium Remeron 15mg K-pin 0.5 mg/night Levothyroxine Last edited by cloudyn808; Jul 08, 2015 at 03:44 PM. |
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Jul 08, 2015, 03:28 PM
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Don't let your sense of humor disappear that would be horrible. All I can give you a support. I know it's hard but believe in yourself, believe that you can be happy.
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Jul 08, 2015, 04:08 PM
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Jul 08, 2015, 04:31 PM
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"Laughter is the best medicine."
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Major Recurrent Depression Generalized anxiety disorder ADHD Recovering Alcoholic Current Rx: Effexor Clonazepam Vyvanse Temazepam "There are a lot of questions in this world and not enough answers." robcalher aka Knowmadd aka Dead Man Walking |
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Jul 08, 2015, 07:20 PM
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Watch a funny movie or a stand up comic on-line. Distracting myself like this sometimes helps me although the first 20-30 mins of what I watch just wash over me as my brain rants on and on but eventually it seems to penetrate. Good luck!
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