[damiann]

All other people are out enjoying summer, going every day on pool or sea and i am all the summer again in my room, like every year. I cant go nowhere, because i have no friends. I am not equal to others, because i didnt have all those things in past (vacations with friends, swimming in pool or sea, trips, sex, friends) that for others are normal. How can i live with this? It hurts too much... And now i cant be on the level of others anymore... people dont realize how happy they can be for all those things they had in youth. I had nothing.

[cloudyn808]

I too had nothing but...as I grew older I made sure I made up for the loss of a childhood. Try to keep hope that someday things will get better and then you can enjoy those things you missed out on. I know it's possible because I lived it.

[damiann]

Compare numbers to others and you see how behind i am. How worthless compare to others. You dont understand how much developed they are because of all those experiences. I am kid, they are adult. And they can always say they won compare to me, because they experienced all more. Therefor i dont see a way out. No thing can give me this equality anymore. I am to far behind, they all made something out of themself. I didnt.


Next week my favourite musician is in my town and the only one which is giving me a little will to live, but i cant go, because i cant be in shorts, because i want others to see my skinny legs. Also i could go on trips with some online friend, but cant go, because its useless, when others had tons of this before and regular sex.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by damiann

All other people are out enjoying summer, going every day on pool or sea and i am all the summer again in my room, like every year. I cant go nowhere, because i have no friends. I am not equal to others, because i didnt have all those things in past (vacations with friends, swimming in pool or sea, trips, sex, friends) that for others are normal. How can i live with this? It hurts too much... And now i cant be on the level of others anymore... people dont realize how happy they can be for all those things they had in youth. I had nothing.

i am agoraphobic, and like you, i miss out on so much of summer (and so many experiences)

life is hard. even more so for people like us.

i guess all we can do is work the best with what we've got. easier said than done, i know. but that's the way life goes sometimes, and it's so unfair.

hugs

[lovejoy91]

Originally Posted by damiann

All other people are out enjoying summer, going every day on pool or sea and i am all the summer again in my room, like every year. I cant go nowhere, because i have no friends. I am not equal to others, because i didnt have all those things in past (vacations with friends, swimming in pool or sea, trips, sex, friends) that for others are normal. How can i live with this? It hurts too much... And now i cant be on the level of others anymore... people dont realize how happy they can be for all those things they had in youth. I had nothing.

It isn't a great idea to compare yourself to others. You can have friends if you are willing to put in the work to get one. You can enjoy summer if you can think about doing fun things by yourself or with family. You can go on a vacation by yourself if you have the funds to do it. You can have sex if you put yourself out there to meet a significant other to work towards a relationship.

You see, life is what YOU make it. Go out there and make the best out of it!

[vital]

Originally Posted by damiann

All other people are out enjoying summer, going every day on pool or sea and i am all the summer again in my room, like every year. I cant go nowhere, because i have no friends. I am not equal to others, because i didnt have all those things in past (vacations with friends, swimming in pool or sea, trips, sex, friends) that for others are normal. How can i live with this? It hurts too much... And now i cant be on the level of others anymore... people dont realize how happy they can be for all those things they had in youth. I had nothing.

Hi Damiann,

I think you might find these notes to be helpful

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

Depression is a sneaky, sneaky thing, but it doesn't have any real power, just like the past has no power over you except for what you think and remember now.

Your story is reminding me of a r e a l l y bad movie I saw recently called Total Recall (the recent one, not the Schwarzenegger version). The plot is that if you're unhappy with your life, you go into this shop and they inject whatever memories into your brain you want. So you can walk out an unhappy person (I guess) who, however, remembers that they were a famous rich person or a spy or an astronaut or something with lots of friends.

- vital

Originally Posted by lovejoy91

It isn't a great idea to compare yourself to others. You can have friends if you are willing to put in the work to get one. You can enjoy summer if you can think about doing fun things by yourself or with family. You can go on a vacation by yourself if you have the funds to do it. You can have sex if you put yourself out there to meet a significant other to work towards a relationship.

You see, life is what YOU make it. Go out there and make the best out of it!

it's something i'm seriously bad at (comparing myself to others).

and i don't just mean the odd comparison, i mean everything.

how am i expected to make the most of what i've got if i always compare myself to other people?

it's certainly something i wish i could stop doing

[elin95]

We're in the same boat..I'm sorry

[lovejoy91]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

it's something i'm seriously bad at (comparing myself to others).

and i don't just mean the odd comparison, i mean everything.

how am i expected to make the most of what i've got if i always compare myself to other people?

it's certainly something i wish i could stop doing

You can stop comparing yourself to others when you are ready. It's easy. Focus on what you can do to better yourself. Go to therapy to learn new coping skills. Learn how to socialize with others. Life isn't easy but it truly is how you make it. You can still make something out of yourself. It is never too late. You're being hard on yourself.

[damiann]

Originally Posted by lovejoy91

It isn't a great idea to compare yourself to others. You can have friends if you are willing to put in the work to get one. You can enjoy summer if you can think about doing fun things by yourself or with family. You can go on a vacation by yourself if you have the funds to do it. You can have sex if you put yourself out there to meet a significant other to work towards a relationship.

You see, life is what YOU make it. Go out there and make the best out of it!

Comparing to others means being realist. See what you have and what others have. I cant lie to myself i am equal when its clear others have amazing numbers behind them.
Its useless to do things now, because i cant be equal to those people anymore. They had fun, they had life, i didnt. There is no way out. No matter what i do, i still loose, because of past and the numbers. Do you understand how many times other had sex and did other normal stuff. I had nothing. This tells all about my worth

Plus i have nothing to talk about with people. I am empty person. And this is because of past. Yes. Life is what you make it. But what you make it in youth. There you develope. There is when it counts what you alive. Once you are too much behind you cant compete anymore and you are lost forever

Originally Posted by lovejoy91

You can stop comparing yourself to others when you are ready. It's easy. Focus on what you can do to better yourself. Go to therapy to learn new coping skills. Learn how to socialize with others. Life isn't easy but it truly is how you make it. You can still make something out of yourself. It is never too late. You're being hard on yourself.

thanks

it's certainly easier said than done

the reason why i'm like this i think is because i can't see what i do have, and be happy with that.

for all i know i was a mistake