[lima01]

I had called pych to double my meds 4 days ago no return call but the morning i went to the online pharmacy and it was there , I feel dumb for not checking earlier . I am very shaky today already took some meds that I usually take just at night , I think I am in crisis right now waiting for drugs to kick in . Any thing that changes or surprises me tends to cause high anxiety
I cut people off from coming to visit me as I think it will make worse . I feel ashamed and hopeless . Will this ever get better?
I feel I put too much faith in meds getting me better , I have never before called a doctor for meds or increased meds . I am such a burden to those around me in this depressed funk . I look for answers all the time but there seems to be no magic maybe I can get thorough some time passing but its tuff.

[Calypso2632]

Sorry you're having such a rough time of things right now. Do you use any relaxation techniques like deep breathing or meditation to help slow you down?

[emijec]

how long have u been on your meds ? this is my 2nd round of depression, things do get better in the sense that you learn to live day by day and things 'normalize'. medication helps a lot and depending on what u are on, it will take about 3 weeks to a month for their full effect. counseling helps, I wouldn't have gotten out if it without a psych. finding out the cause is important. did anything happen to u that caused the depression? knowing the cause I think is helping me this time around, u know what you need to control & it gives u hope that u can get through it and survive .

it's hard to do every day things, work in bits. taking a shower or brushing ur teeth are achievements. I would question what's the point? and get sad again . but try not to do that. every time u do that one action. slowly it becomes routine and then you'll see it getting a bit normal with time because it becomes automatic, like a reflex.

in terms of anxiety, I'm not sure. I am feeling it too. which didn't happen last time. r u taking anxiety medication or just anti depressants? if just anti depressants, can u talk to the doctor about taking something for that ?

[lima01]

I am now on 50mg amytripline at night and xanax .5 mg as needed . I try not use the xanax unless i get real shaky during the day . I have to use a full pill to try to get some sleep .
They tell me not to let my anxiety get to bad before i take a pill . I don't like taking pills and I can't take the wonder drugs with ssri's as the side effects drive over the wall . That's my luck .
This is the second nervous breakdown in ten years ,I didn't think I would make it out the first time . This time is worse I can't see recovery even possible . too much trauma too many real problems to cope with . The drugs let me sleep some but each day is misery too face .

[Nammu]

These are small things but they help me.

Taking scented baths, use tea bags if you don't have scented bath oil,bubble or salt. Stay in the tub as it drains and wash of troubles and anxiety visually let them go down the drain with the water

Coloring, or just use regular paper pens and pencil and just doodles..start in one corner and don't consciously draw anything, just make lines, thin lines, thick lines, wavy , curly, Zigzag lines until the paper is filled.

If you can get a blue screen on your tv...usually when you switch to the DVD but with no disk in its blue. Just look at it for 5 minutes and try to empty your mind of fear, think calming thoughts. Think of swinging, running across a field of wheat or heather, sitting in sunshine, etc

Lay on the floor and stare at the ceiling just look without trying notice cracks or shadows. Breath deeply and let it out very slowly.

I hope these help or give you ideas that help.