[Perna]

Do you differentiate when things go "sour" versus when you wake up depressed? Does it help at all if you feel you have a "reason" to be depressed or does it all look the same to you, either with a reason or with just plain lack of interest/nothing seeming to "work right" for you, everything looks the "same."

I've just started a couple courses that I probably shouldn't have and they're not coming out the way I wanted/expected/was hoping and they're dragging me down into "now what do I do?" land without much hope of answers. Don't know if I feel that's any different from waking up not wanting to get out of bed in the first place especially.

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[SecretGarden]

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Perna said:
Do you differentiate when things go "sour" versus when you wake up depressed? Does it help at all if you feel you have a "reason" to be depressed or does it all look the same to you, either with a reason or with just plain lack of interest/nothing seeming to "work right" for you, everything looks the "same."

I've just started a couple courses that I probably shouldn't have and they're not coming out the way I wanted/expected/was hoping and they're dragging me down into "now what do I do?" land without much hope of answers. Don't know if I feel that's any different from waking up not wanting to get out of bed in the first place especially.

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Sometime I can see things coming and sometimes they just hit me ... I think that there is a difference but sometimes I think it is a matter of vigilence... sort of. It is like taking a self temperature on a regular basis and sometimes you (I) see it coming and the cause and sometimes not. Sometimes I know how to cut it off at the pass .... Now what do you do with it...that is the question.

Sorry that your classes are not turning out as you wished.

Sometimes something will not work out for me and that is not SOOO bad but when I get whapped repeatedly then that is when the bouncability is compromised. A reason is o.k. but ..... best not stay there after a period of morning or dealing with it... or you could get stuck.

(I know lately I am a fine one to talk... but I am running around the best I can to do whatever I need to do to mend things.)

Were you taking the classes with a dream in mind for your future or were they for fun? Maybe you just need to go in a different direction and let yourself off the hook... I know...not always easy. Can you talk to your professors...or would that help?

All easier said than done. Bestest wishes.

Perna,
That's a great question. I think it's a little bit of both. Maybe there are times when we are depressed but it flies under the radar because things are turning out well-we feel loved, we feel confident. etc... But then it doesn't take much to knock us/me off my feet again. One little set back and I'm back to feeling like I have no purpose in life and I shouldn't exist.
At least that's the way it seems to work for me.