[waterknob1234]

I had a bad dream last night. I dreamed I signed up for some job and I was undergoing the training process. I dreamed that a very harsh, stern woman in a uniform came up to me and told me I was a mess and that I was going to fail. I also compared myself to others in the program who seemed to be smarter and more sophisticated. I woke up not feeling too well emotionally.

I am tired of feeling like I always get knocked down. I get tired of low self-esteem. That internal bully seems to always lurk in the background. I may just draw a picture of this hateful imaginary woman and burn the picture, then maybe I can get rid of her?

Sorry, I know this post makes no sense, just ranting.

[unaluna]

Gwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmyyyyyyyyy........

(Thats my internal bully. You have to say it all long and drawn out like that. Itll make you feel a little better. )

[puzzclar]

Please rant!!!!! All you want!!!! It really does help!

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[francisR]

Hi Waterknob

Yes, burning the picture of the bully might help you. But you can always challenge your internal bully by telling it. you are good at some things and have been successful at some things. Keeping a list of what you have achieved would be a good thing to be able to refer to.
But you are just like everyone else good at most things and not so good at a few. That just makes you as worthy as anyone else on earth. I hope and pray you feel much better soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis

[TheOriginalMe]

Are you still seeing a therapist? If you are then show the picture to your T
You need to get rid of that person for good and a T will be able to help you do that.

[Fuzzybear]

Ps Grrrrrrrr at that "person"

[roboanxia]

I love my internal bully. If it weren't for her pulling up mean insults onto the conscious stage, I wouldn't feel motivated to check things twice or to push harder. She's like a personal trainer (and dominatrix).

[waterknob1234]

I am thankful for much cooler weather. I am thankful for the opportunity to go to school to study accounting. I am also thankful that Hurricane Joaquin is going to pass us by. But I can't understand why I can't shake a bad feeling today.

For some reason my mind keeps wandering to all the mistakes I have made, bad things that have happened to me, and in my mind I see all the people who have hurt me. I am trying to focus on studying and chores for my husband's business, but these bad thoughts keep invading. I don't know why and I don't know what to do.

[waterknob1234]

Just ranting folks. This is to all those mean bullies who have hurt me all of my life.

All these little symbols just help me express how I feel. I am not angry at anyone on pc. Everybody here is wonderful.

Originally Posted by waterknob1234

I am thankful for much cooler weather. I am thankful for the opportunity to go to school to study accounting. I am also thankful that Hurricane Joaquin is going to pass us by. But I can't understand why I can't shake a bad feeling today.

For some reason my mind keeps wandering to all the mistakes I have made, bad things that have happened to me, and in my mind I see all the people who have hurt me. I am trying to focus on studying and chores for my husband's business, but these bad thoughts keep invading. I don't know why and I don't know what to do.

hugs

it is so hard to focus on the positive things when you have so much negative stuff hhappen in your life

trust me, i know