[pooh6299]

In 2010, I got layoff from my 8 years job, beside looking for job I decided wrote custom software and patented (which I got it done). in end of 2010, my friend introduced me investor from Brazil hes name Felix, want to invested my project.

One week before 2010 Christmas, he invited me, my friend and many investor to his beach house in Miami beach. Very nice mansion , during meeting I presented protype my software, they all like it. We signed contract they agreed $10 million investment. They told me will took three months for money to come from out country.
My family was so happy about this news.

In March 2011, they told me money is on the way, but they use my name and company raise money in stocks money, so they have one dead stocks company, they told the public my company brought the dead stock company, this way in three months make my company become public company.

In april 2010, they gave me first $100k, they start prepared me to annouance news, I was follow their direction. They also told me start hiring people, so I asked 12 my good friends quited their job work for me. !

During next three months, total I received $900 k from investor and he received 40% ownership ! Stocks went high, due to my custom software and business model. But one day investor took their stocks went to Mexico sold all their stocks est $4 million, in usa law, he cant sale his owner stocks for two years, but law apply to Mexico.

$900 k running out fast, I even put my own money in try bring back companyon track. But I am not able, I lost everything...i mean everything. I also screwed up 12 people families life and the honest people who invested my stock. Tf one good thing are my family stand by me.

People doing this to me, they many id, name and passport. Their life are woner, still live luxury life, I dont know why fbi still not arrest them.I heard they bern doing this repeatedly

Now 2nd parts during past years my life got up and down, get temp jobs and also try start comapny again. My family keep stand by me, special my wife, she beern supported my life and kid college funds.

Two companies show interested invest my company, one last minutes back off, one show interested, still thinking, even verbal agreed, but not signed.

About job, two big company was going hire me, but last minutes they cancelled contract, here things I did wrong, due I told My wife big company hire me, she was so happy, she told every one she knew, because she so proud about me, when my contract cancelled, I dont have courage told her.

So everyday I spend time in starbucks, my wife think I was at work, now we run out money, I still cant get job, I try any job, they say
hey want entry level, and sr job market are looking good. Because my wife, thinking I had job, she spend money for us and her business needs with cautious.

We own about $150k, my kid still in college need money, my wife got sdo much debt, becasuse by trusted me. We been together 22 years, I never gave her good life. Two dasys ago I got let go from the temp job, due to downsize.

I am very sorry to my family, friends and honest people who invested me in stock market.

if I dont have some money soon, maybe I should just die, then I can repay the people I hurts and my family too.

Sorry for long story. I am very depressed, feel theres no hope in my life.!!!!!!

[CANDC]

hi pooh, welcome to Psych Central. Money can be replaced, but you cannot. Please remain safe and with your family. Debt with you is manageable. Life without you is a crisis for them.

Please consider making a safety plan in case your thoughts turn into plans to act in harming yourself. There are ways to cope with these kinds of stress, like self care and having a safety plan in case you find yourself in a crisis of confidence. Here is more on a safety plan that includes numbers for crisis lines that serve your area. Psych Central - Search results for Safety plan

Of course I would highly recommend a therapist, but if that is not possible, I would like to recommend a resource here at Psych Central that you can send in a question, and get a reply from the therapist as their time allows. Here is the link for that. Ask the Therapist

Many people who are actively involved in Psych Central find it helps take them out of their own problems to develop empathy for others. And their problems though still there are more manageable.

There are lots of compassionate people here that can make the load lighter by sharing and caring. Feel free to participate actively at Psych Central. Some people find the forums give them the compassion and empathy they seek. http://forums.psychcentral.com

Please feel free to private message me or any of the Community Liaisons by left clicking on the name in blue to the left of their post) for questions or just to share.

self caring can include:
Diet can have an affect on how we feel. I have to watch what I eat because foods I eat can stabilize my moods or exaggerate them. A high protein low carb diet with snacks or meals every 3-4 hours will over time reduce my swings. I also avoid alcohol and recreational drugs because those can really increase depression.

Here is what I use when my head gets over crammed with thoughts. Breathe in a natural way. Silently count one on the inhale and 2 on the exhale. 3 on the inhale and 4 on the exhale. Continue up to 10 then go back to 1. This helps me focus on breathing rather than the wall of thoughts.

Other lifestyle changes that help me are doing yoga, exercises, mindfulness, calm music, and being active on Psych Central.

[Clara22]

Hi Pooh,
Thanks a lot for sharing. Many of us felt the same, at certain point. But then we realize that we do not solve anything by dying. Hope you keep posting, also you can pm. I am sending you a big hug

[kaliope]

hi pooh
i know it seems you are in a desperate situation however you do have the support of your famiy and i feel they will understnad. be honest with them. you need the support right now. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome

[SCP-122]

Ending your life will end the chances of your life getting any better. I can't even begin to imagine how difficult you're situation must be, but ending your life is never the answer. If you're still in crisis and worried you may hurt yourself, call the the Suicide Prevention Lifeline. The number is 1 (800) 273-8255. I know you can pull through and turn your life around especially if you have a family who understands you.

[waggiedog]

Hello dear ''Pooh'' and a very big WARM WELCOME to Psych Central. Y'a know, I'm SOOOOO very glad you sought us out and not kept all this terrible worry and anxiety to yourself. Now, Im really NOT going to pretend I know anything about the big business ventures in this world, I've only run a small business venture buying, training and selling horses and ponies for the show ring BUT, even in small ventures one can take a huge tumble because we tend to judge other people on our own standards. Because we are HONEST people, genuine and trustworthy, we expect other people to be the same ~~ sadly they really are NOT. There's some right so and so's out there no matter what part of the globe you live in. I live in SE London, I have been bought up to be honest and stick to my work, because of that I came unstuck BIG TIME!! Promises of settlements were banded around but never came to fruitation, sadly I lost my part of the livery yard, lost 7 horses which had already been sold but not collected. Next thing I had the high court sheffifs in to take goods!!! I wished the ground could have opened up and dragged me in, talk about embassessed!!!! I wanted out, I got to the point of ending it, didn't work so all that happened was I was sectioned in psych hospital. DON'T PLEASE go down that road, your family would be absolutely devastated, believe me. You say you have been married for 22 years, yet then you say you feel you didn't look after your wife as you should, you DID, or she would NOT still be with you. Hunny, please can you hang on in here, message us, no matter what you say it wont shock and wont offend. Because im in a bad situation now I too want to just ''go'', but I HAVE to live through another day if I wake up breathing.
PLEASE feel you can come back and say what ever you need to, we don't bite and I promise you we all look as ''normal'' as you do in civy street. Take care now. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX