[Thisisme586]

I hate feeling like this day in day out even on a good day I could careless anymore about anything. I realized Monday the two things that made me the happiest and to keep going are not that effective anymore it's like I have lost all love for anyone or anything. Now if I were to end it have to find a time not near the holidays for family sake it just pisses me off

[Skeezyks]

Hello Thisisme586: I'm sorry to read of your struggle. It sounds as though you are pretty clearly suffering with some major depression at the moment. Hopefully you are getting some professional mental health services to help you to overcome your anguish. It's great that you've come here to PC. And I would encourage you to keep posting! But you also need some real life support as well. Depression can be a serious condition, as I'm sure you are aware. Please reach out to someone you trust.

[Fizzyo]

Hi thisisme,

You are clearly in a very difficult place right now. I would urge you to phone a support line especially if you feel you may not be safe. There are lots of numbers in Depression resources and you clearly need support.
I also agree with Sheezyks, professional help is probably a necessity if you don't have access to it already.

I really hope you get the support you need.

[Fizzyo]