[JJORANGE]

For about 4 weeks now I can't bring myself to do anything. Going to school has become nonexistent, even when I just get marks for showing up I still can't make myself go. 2 times I've driven to my college and sat in the car for 20 mins before turning around and going home. And I have 2 essays and a exam next week and I haven't started studying or writing either essay. I'm stressing myself out because I'm not doing anything and yet I'm not doing anything. I've got depression and an eating disorder. Tonight I've eaten 3 Klondike bars which just makes me feel more guilty and depressed. Why do I keep doing this when I know it makes me feel like ****.

Hey JJ, I know how you feel.

I'm sending hugs your way:

[vital]

Originally Posted by JJORANGE

For about 4 weeks now I can't bring myself to do anything. Going to school has become nonexistent, even when I just get marks for showing up I still can't make myself go. 2 times I've driven to my college and sat in the car for 20 mins before turning around and going home. And I have 2 essays and a exam next week and I haven't started studying or writing either essay. I'm stressing myself out because I'm not doing anything and yet I'm not doing anything. I've got depression and an eating disorder. Tonight I've eaten 3 Klondike bars which just makes me feel more guilty and depressed. Why do I keep doing this when I know it makes me feel like ****.

Hey JJORANGE,

I think I know exactly what's going on and what to do about it! This isn't even mentioned as an official symptom of depression, but, in my view it's really close to the core of the problem.

See these notes: http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB/BA.pdf

See how well it worked, for, for instance Freewilled: http://forums.psychcentral.com/4715237-post156.html

- vital

[RomanSunburn]

I'm the same way. When I get depressed, it's school that takes the biggest hit. I have depression and generalized anxiety, so I get stuck in a cycle of not going. I don't go because I'm depressed, I get anxious about not going so I don't go again, I get depressed about not going, I get anxious again, depressed again... It's just so hard to pull yourself out of that cycle. Today, I am going to class. I have put my foot down, and I am going. Well, that, and I have to meet with an instructor today about making up a midterm... I haven't been going regularly for a few weeks, and I'm definitely behind. I also have a big week coming up next week -- three essays due, one of which has to be about 10-15 pages.

What I've found the most helpful is taking little steps, and being proud of yourself for whatever accomplishments you make, like talking to a professor (for me, that's huge. There's still one professor I'm avoiding...). I set up a meeting with my accommodations person, and that's another little victory. Actually going to the meeting, another one. I try to focus on the things I can do today, and try not to worry about the rest. It's not a great long term plan, but it's a way to get started again.

You're not alone. I really hope you can pull through this. I understand how tough it is, but you can do it. One day at a time