[lynz28]

Hi,
I'm new here. Just found this site last night. I find that when other people have the same feelings as I do I feel more "normal" I guess, (normal in the mental world) . For the past two weeks I have been suffering with my PMDD and its been really bad this month. I cry one minute, then am just raging angry or irritible the next. I feel like I cant deal with anything. I've also got GAD and depression, and it started with a drug induced panic attack, which happened about 6 years ago. I wish I had never touched a drug in my life. I've been on meds ever since and suffering with this stuff. I hate it. I just dont understand, its like you live once, why do you have to live your life like this???

Anyways, I went and talked with a psychologist on Wednesday and she wanted me to up my Celexa from 20 mg to 40 mg, and switch birth controls, and also start taking Amatriptilyne (sp?) at night. Well, I took it Friday night and laid there with knots in my stomach waiting to feel "weird" and couldnt sleep. Then I woke up Saturday morning and was feeling ok, then I got my 1 year old son some cereal and when I gave it to him things started to feel really unreal to me. So, of course I freaked and called a friend because I thought I was going to have a panic attack (which I havent had in years) i couldnt breathe, things didnt feel real still. The skin on my chest right under my neck felt like I had sprayed Icy Hot on it, it just felt weird, then my whole body would get hot. I seriously felt like I was going crazy!! Well, my friend came over, I distracted myself and felt alright through the rest of the day until I came home. I tried to distract myself last night, didnt work too well. Went to sleep with knots in my stomach and anxiety really high again, (i didnt take the amatriptilyne) and didnt sleep good at all and today am feeling high anxiety and scared again. I've been doing sooooo good!!! I cant get my mind off of this terrible anxiety and feeling like I'm going to go crazy stuff. I feel like i'll never feel good again! .. .It feels better to vent a little, I know this is long.

Thanks for listening (reading)
Lynz28

[tranquility]

Hi Lynz,

I know it's Sunday but you could try calling the doc to see if there is something else you can try.

One of the most important things to do when you are having an anxiety attack is to breathe. Just close your eyes and focus on breathing really deep with your stomach not your chest. Blow out real slow. Do this as much as it takes until the feeling passes.

Tranquility

[Direction]

Glad you found PC...Welcome!

I agree with tranquility about calling...Don't you?