[guiltier65]

In other words, I agree with Solomon. Everything is meaningless. I feel so empty and lost right now. I'm tired of being this person, dealing with this disease. I want to give up, I'm tired of trying to numb out with Xanax and alcohol. I long for peace and rest. Whatever that looks like.

[blessedlonergrl]

Hopefully you have plans to stop drinking, because you will feel better if you stop... better as in, probably more bored but more 'okay' . Why don't you work on defining your purpose in life? I hope you don't give up and remember that sometimes you will feel okay but sometimes you'll have to work hard to keep moving... I have to remind myself that or else I will drink to distract myself too.

I wish that the writer of Ecclesiastes could have met Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, the author of Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience.

He also asks the question "What makes life worth living?" TED Talk link

Even though the writer of Ecclesiastes repeatedly says (in various forms) "So I commend the enjoyment of life, because there is nothing better for a person under the sun than to eat and drink and be glad. Then joy will accompany them in their toil all the days of the life God has given them under the sun" he does not seem to think that maybe the answer to his questions and misgivings about the nature of life lie in these words. Maybe it really is that simple.

[Fizzyo]

[Skeezyks]

Yes, for me, ultimately, everything is literally devoid of meaning. It is this very meaninglessness that I strive to embrace... with compassion...