[jrae]

I could really use some support and help. Lately, I've been feeling like I'm drowning!

Ten weeks ago, I was in a pretty bad car crash. I was (and still am) pretty banged up and my car was totaled (one third of it smashed in). Before that, things for me were okay, as I was just managing to hold my head above water (so to speak). I am getting financial assistance from the state, which is much needed as I'm unable to do much on my own.

After my car crash, everything has gone to h***. I just can't handle all the things that are being thrown at me! There are all the physical injuries, and then months of rehab to heal and recover from this. And I probably should have started rehab weeks ago, but I just can't get myself to do it. Mostly because I have so much already on my plate that there's no room, and partly because it's a lot of work and energy, which I just don't have. And the longer I wait, the longer I sit with the injuries not getting better and potentially making them worse (and the situation around them worse as well).

And then the financial side of things. There are so many restrictions and rules that have to be followed otherwise I could lose my eligibility for my benefits from the state. But for the amount the insurance company has offered as a settlement for my car, I really can't get a different one (at least one that's decent). So I have no idea what to do. I just can't process all this.

And then there's the mental / emotional side to all of this. I have a head/brain injury, which further complicates things. I don't feel comfortable in cars, especially after all my injuries, including a 3-inch head laceration.

What the h*** am I suppose to do? I'm slowly drowning in all this and can't see any way out. And I really don't have anyone to talk to or help me either. I just wanna curl up in a ball and cry.....

[bebogirl16]

I am really sorry to hear about the car crash, but thank goodness you are ok

I get where you are coming from, I myself am not working and the thought of bills just gives me a headache.
Its good to hear that you are getting some assistance, thought I know that can be a real hassle at the same time which makes things even worse.

If your injuries are really making you feel worse, I think going to rehab to get better would be the best thing to do, I know it's easier said than done.

But once you get better, you could start focusing on other things.
Take it one day at a time, and look at the big picture of recovering.

It sounds cheesy, but things usually find a way to work out. Its hard to believe when you think you are drowning though, I know.

Hope my words helped in some way.

[jbuttz]

If that was me I would cancel my Internet, things I didn't need, let the state take care of me and focus on myself for a while. I've had to work through a broken toe, mental health issues, etc because I needed the money. I wish I took the time to heal properly. Just take it slow!

[jrae]

it's just a lot for me to take on. And at the worst time of year for me. This stretch from early December thru February is brutal for me - every year!

[jbuttz]

Originally Posted by jrae

it's just a lot for me to take on. And at the worst time of year for me. This stretch from early December thru February is brutal for me - every year!

It's almost over my friend. Keep your head up! I also hate these months