[Humpty Dumpty]

I was working and just starting thinking in great detail on another way I could kill myself. Then the more I thought it through the more tempted I was to do it. On the best of days I don't want to kill myself I just want to die.

So when you start thinking this way how do you cope?

[KEB1990]

feeling like that sucks. I've been there. Try to find something that makes you feel good and that your making a Difference in. Hugs to you and hope you feel better.

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by KEB1990

Try to find something that makes you feel good and that your making a Difference in. Hugs to you and hope you feel better.

Thanks. Unfortunately I am unable to do that right now while I am at work. When I am not at work I will try and remember this.

[Clara22]

I do not know if this would work for you but I do not fight against my Sui ideations, if I want to cry, I cry. If the root is I am overwhelmed I try to divert my thoughts to why I feel overwhelmed and make a plan to improve the causes. Also, I reach out, making a phone call or something to chat with somebody I appreciate asking how they are, etc.

[i dont matter]

favorite memories or favorite things to do....... I think of them and try to focus all my energy into sucking some of that positivity into my soul.

[Fuzzybear]

[i dont matter]

Avoid? No. Welcome with open arms - yes.

[kecanoe]

I can't avoid the thoughts of suicide. And I agree with you that it is a good day when I just wish I was dead instead of trying to make it so. The thing that keeps me going is remembering what it will do to a family member. Despite what we think, (or at least what I think-they'd be better off without me, or they would do ok if I was gone) family members of suicides suffer terribly.

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by kecanoe

The thing that keeps me going is remembering what it will do to a family member. Despite what we think, (or at least what I think-they'd be better off without me, or they would do ok if I was gone) family members of suicides suffer terribly.

The only reason I am still alive is because of my wife. Quite frequently I wish I could just make her hate me. It would be so much easier that way. Unfortunately I am not that type of person that can be a complete and total jerk to others, especially someone I love.

[Fuzzybear]

I understand

Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty

The only reason I am still alive is because of my wife. Quite frequently I wish I could just make her hate me. It would be so much easier that way. Unfortunately I am not that type of person that can be a complete and total jerk to others, especially someone I love.

[SoupDragon]

I don't think they can be avoided. I try to think of them as an indication that I am forgetting to look after myself. Like am I making sure I am getting enougb rest, good food, exercise, doing fun things. Failing that, I think of them as a storm that will eventually blow over. Take care.

[Curry]

When I was younger I came to a time when I simply didn't have 'enough.' Looking back it was like I was playing near a cliff, and the first thing I needed to do was do what ever was necessary to get away from the cliff because you can slip even if you don't entirely mean it. I played there for quite some time, and then I made the commitment to get on to level ground. Basically, I put one foot in front of the other for a long time, did some more stupid stuff but not at that dangerous a level. I found a lot of joy in life later and more heart ache. I send you so much love and affection for being at such a hard point in your life. Good for you for reaching out, I reach back with a hug for as long as you need it..