Hi everyone,

I could really use some support around this please, and thank you so very much.

I lost my entire mental health support system recently due to abuse I received from a mental health administrator. I won't go into the details here.. it's detailed on a thread in the abuse forum, but as a result, I've lost my entire community that I was with for the last year and a half.

My depression is worsening as a result. At first I was in shock and disbelief over the abusive treatment I received. Then enraged. Now the sadness and loss is kicking in...

I can't concentrate on my work today. Many members of that community have written to me telling me that I was very unfairly & unjustly treated... their words are so very kind and comforting, but it's also making the pain worse right now, because the abuse is so hard to ignore and is sinking in even further.

I am on AD meds, but I don't have a therapist right now. I will see one on Jan 9th, but that seems so far away.

I just feel so lost without my friends, without my tight knit community of support. I was a valued member of that community, and received a lot of acknowledgement of how much I contributed and helped other members. I also looked to them for support, too.

I didn't deserve the cruel treatment I received.. no one does. My depression is now worsening as a result. I already said that though.

I really could use some hugs, some comforting words, anything really.. even though you don't me yet here... I could just use any type of support right now.. thank you so very much!

[12AM]

I am sorry you had a tough time there, and yes you are right, no one deserves a cruel treatment. I am sending you a lot of hugs

[monkeybrains21]

u are not alone in ur depression here. that was one community but now for the time being u can make this community here a support network. i do, even if im so far down the rabbit hole i dont see light. thats where i am now. outside of here my only support is my wife sometimes and my T once a week, other than that i just try to make it here.

really try the chat sometimes it does help. i always try the emotional chat room but usually no one is there when i am so i go to the other rooms as a distraction or i ask someone if we could have a PM chat so as not to disrupt the room i have found myself in. so sorry no idea if im making any sense at all, like i said im very far down right now. i just felt i should respond to u so u dont feel so alone.

Monkeybrains, and 12PM, Thank you both so very much!!! Sooo greatly appreciated!!!

Your words and support help.... I feel so very emotionally needy right now after losing my whole community.. it's like a rug was pulled right out from under me, and whooosh, in one split second it's just gone, leaving me alone, flapping in the wind with my depression..

Yes, I've tried chat on here and it's wonderful!! I've gone to the emotional support room several times already... everyone here is truly sweet and kind. I will be on chat more I'm sure. Maybe I'll run into you both there, too.

And Monkeybrains, you made perfect sense. So sorry you're so down as well... I'm glad you have your wife for some support, too. That helps.

Thanks so much again... HUGS!!!!!

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry you have been subjected to the loss of your treatment team.

I can empathize your deepening depression. I know that January 9th seems like a long time away but I hope the days pass fast for you and that your session goes well. And that the new year bring you relief from your depression.

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[Nix]

I'm sorry you're experiencing this difficult time, and I hope that people here at PsychCentral will help be a support system to you … and I agree with gayleggg that I hope the days seem to go fast for you until your next t appointment.

gayleggg and phoenix, thank you so very much!!! (((((hugs)))))

I pray the days go by fast too.... I have so much to cover in my next session and am feeling totally desperate for professional help right now.. I pray the new year brings relief too... I feel like my AD should be increased or something. I don't know how effective it is right now.

As the day goes on, the depression just seems to be getting worse. The pain is so great... I cannot bear it. My sadness is so deep, I cannot bear it.

I haven't gotten an ounce of work done. I pray I don't get fired. So of course, now I'm anxious too. I have anxiety too, for which I'm taking meds.

[towngrl159]

sending prayers

Thanks so very much, towngrl!!!! I do need prayers... prayers for healing and recovery... I imagine the same goes for all who are suffering on here.