[doggiedo]

So I did it. I called a new psychologist and she called me back last week to say she couldn't see me until the first week in Jan. Although that's not bad, I called one other person today to see if she might be able to see me. I'm new to the area and am not looking forward to establishing myself with a new doctor again. But, it's for the best, right?

two main observations this week regarding my depressions/feelings...

Eating - my eating is so messed up. I wake up and have candy or cookies and then munch at work. Then when it's lunch time, I would rather not eat anything than try to eat the sandwich I've brought. I just have no desire for real food. I know it's what my body needs, but I hate it. I think this probably means that I hate myself.....if I'm being honest with myself.

Relationship - I'm not sharing as much about how I down I feel with my boyfriend (whom I live with) as I have shared with him in the past (when we didn't live together). I think I'm a little afraid for him to see how down I feel. It makes him sad, and I don't want to see him sad. I have told him once or twice how much I hate myself or how bad I feel about the way I look...and that makes him feel bad bc he thinks I'm beautiful. He wishes that I could see myself the way he does. Honestly, I do too.

So anyway, I guess the waiting game begins - see when/if this psychologist calls me back and IF she has an appt that will work with my full time job and full time school schedule. Fun times.

Congrats on making such an important step that's great!!!!!!!!

[Skeezyks]

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[Fizzyo]

Well done for taking this step, I hope the appointment works out for you.

[doggiedo]

Thanks. I always feels like it takes a while to get into the swing of things with a new doctor though. I almost wish she had the crib sheet from my old doctor, lol. But in a good note, it's all new so she can figure things (aka: me) out without any preconceived notions.

How long does it usually take for me to know if this counselor is good fit? I mean, I can't expect the first session or even the first few to help make me feel better, right?

[Fizzyo]

I guess you know very quickly if it really isn't going to work. I saw someone once who really triggered me quite badly on the first session, so didn't go back. Sometimes it takes a few weeks to know if you feel you can trust someone, but the most recent person I have seen, I felt Safe with her immediately. If you can feel comfortable with a therapist, you're likely to get at least some benefit, it may be some weeks before you notice changes. You have years of unhelpful thinking habits and pain to overcome.
Best of luck