[lmn]

I cant handle my mornings. All I do is wake up with anxiety and in tears. I live alone and I am trying to decide if I want to move in with someone. I think it might help but at times I need to cry and I dont want her to think I am absolutely strange. cause I feel so mess up. ....I have been on antidepressents and anxiety pills for 2 months now and I am doing alot better but not great. I cant handle stress anymore. I cant...and I dont know....I cant make decisions for myself. And I miss my dad and boyfriends so much. I miss them. i cant be around anyone that I really truely love. I have made good friends here but I cant rely on them for my happiness. I am so fed up with ths disease. I handle it anymore.........I know things are better than they were....and thats a good thing.....and I should be greatful. But mornings like this just hurt so much. I need coping skills for these mornings. Any suggestions. I need to start living again. And making choices for myself. The next one being living with someone again or not...........I wanted to be able to be independent and live on my own but now I just feel like a failure. I just dont know what the right thing to do is anymore and I cant handle stress. Help pleaes

[Rapunzel]

There is a difference between being independent and being isolated. Having people around you can really make a difference for the better in recovery from depression. I don't know whether moving in with someone is the right answer for you or not though. That is your decision. Can you try making a list of the pros and cons? Then you can see which reasons are stronger.

You are right that you can't rely on your friends for your happiness. That can only come from within. But they can help. Having a sense of independence is important, but we still need other people even if we are independent. You don't have to feel like a failure because of that.

Things get better slowly, and that is frustrating. You just have to keep working at it and taking one step at a time, and you will get there.

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