[adampeps]

Hi all,

I've had bouts of depression a few times now in my life. Most seem to occur when a series of events make me sad, bring out insecurities around self-worth, etc.

My most recent one has lasted for the past 10 days and have felt very absent with my two young children (6 months and 2.5 years). But last night I came home and was feeling great. I felt I figured out some of our problems (won't get into them) but was there for my kids, didn't feel like a chore, etc.

But then I woke up this AM and although it wasn't as bad as other mornings, it wasn't as good as I expected based on the night I had. Similarly at work, my mind then drifts off and I start getting down on myself, anxious, legs shaking, etc.

Here are my questions:
1 - I found I was at my worst when going back to the Zoloft. I had been 50mg every 4 to 5 days as I was doing fine for a long time. When I felt my depression come back I started taking every day. But was worse. So I laid off for 3 days and like I said had a good day last night. I wonder if I am mis-diagnosing myself and the Zoloft is increasing my anxiety?

2 - Is it normal during depression recovery to still have some up & downs that feel like you are getting back to depressed mode? I seem to remember this the last time too but it's been a while.

Thanks!

[Ocean Swimmer]

Sometimes you're on the wrong medication. I remember trying Paxil. It was like a dose of depression and anxiety. No way could I take it.

[kecanoe]

For Zoloft to be effective it needs to be taken daily. So to your body it might have been like starting to take it with all the side effects that come from that.
And yes, ups and downs are normal during recovery.

[adampeps]

Originally Posted by kecanoe

For Zoloft to be effective it needs to be taken daily. So to your body it might have been like starting to take it with all the side effects that come from that.
And yes, ups and downs are normal during recovery.

I didn't realize that. I can't see the doctor for another week and a half. I had been going off Zoloft for about a year now. For a while 50mg / day, 2 days on/1 day off, 1 day on/1 day off, ..., to once every 4 to 5 days. I was doing fine until the recent onslaught of stuff.

It's good to know that this could just be the side effects of the meds. Perhaps these aren't the right ones although they did help before. I do remember them being brutal to start on though!