[xXFiyaXx]

I really just want to curl up and die rn and I'm too scared to contact my therapist because I have severe *psychotic* mdd and she'll probably have me sent to a psych ward or something and I just can't do that and ugh.
I'm on lexapro but it's so early in having it that it's not affecting me at all and I just I don't know
Just had to rant :/

[dexter]

Hope things get better Flya. Give the Lexapro some time to work. Don't be afraid to call your therapist or a hotline if that's what you need.

[Rohag]

Do you have experience or evidence your therapist would take the steps to involuntarily commit you? Is there someone else to whom you could speak? (Crisis Resources)

Fiya, that was a rather brief "rant." Please feel free to continue.

[xXFiyaXx]

My psych eval said if my parents find out I cut again I'd be involuntary committed. I'm fairly certain this would be cause for involuntary commitment as well. She knows I have no desire to live but this is worse than that :/ I don't intend to act on this desire even though I want to. She doesn't know i want to cuz I'm afraid of being involuntarily committed. I'm in my senior year of high school and I've applied to college, I'd be willing if it was for summer and only the summer but I don't want to miss any school just because my therapist decided to through me in a psych ward.