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lately i have been feeling more happy and not so depressed. but in the past couple of weeks i have felt like my life is coming down. nothing bad has happened, but it seems like since im aware of my life, every little thing effects me 24/7. when i was in a big depression i was oblivious to the events in my life until something came up and reminded me of it. but now i always feel all the horrible things in my life, not the happy ones. and i dont know what is making it that way. is it my medication, do i need to switch it or up the dosage? or am i falling into a major depression again? i am very confused. Any advice??

damaj,

It's really cool you've been more happy recently, I think I kind of know what you mean, since I've been in a similar place myself recently. What was happening, (still is I think), is that I'm now so aware of depression and its triggers and what it has the potential to do, so I was, I guess, thinking about them more. That, for me, triggered a relapse last week, and so I've made appt with T (which sucks cause I was damn sure I had won for once). The depression's lifted now, but that may be more because I just had my final exam of the semester today.

It could be meds, but I don't know much about them. I guess it could go either way for you, back into the clouds or back out into the sun. Maybe if you make a bit of a conscious effort to focus on the happy you can avoid the depression? I don't know, I feel kinda helpless at the moment, and it's hard/impossible to focus on the good when all you can see is the bad.

I hope things go back to being good for you :-)

could be a relapse, could be meds, could just be stressed. at any rate you should talk with your doctor about these new symptoms. upping you dose may be the answer, could be that simple.

hope you find your answers....
recluse1