Feeling a little invisible lately

The past few weeks, especially the past few days, I've been feeling really invisible. Mostly, if not all my fault, though that doesn't help the feeling lessen. I've been going to group therapy for a year, and the last few weeks the T has switched the routine, so it's no longer "checking in" with each person, but more of going over a stupid packet and having a discussion about it. Anyway, this change plus my anxiety makes me not have said ANYTHING in the group for the past 3 weeks. No one mentions anything, not even the T. Which she's probably respecting my feelings, but I went to group for the extra support I'd get by checking in. I feel like I'm not noticed, I go in and leave without anyone saying a thing to me the last few weeks.

Then today after group, I had a doctor's appointment with my dr that I've been seeing for the past 7 years and she's very familiar with me. The waiting got to be too much, so I left without even seeing her. I just sat in the room waiting for 30 minutes. I guess I expected a call to at least reschedule or something, but nothing.

I know it's more than that. I just wish someone would ask me how I feel and actually give a damn. I know I'm over reacting about everything. I'm angry and hurt about everything. I don't know why I'm bothering lately.

Hi Amy,
I can understand a bit. I was in a dbt group and it was often disorganized and would go off topic. Check ins were sometimes dismissed for certain people and she would end up focusing too much on one person. I think she did the best she can. In that situation, I realized another person also felt "left out", and we both spoke up finally about how we felt. It's hard to do, but the only way you can get the help you need is to speak up and say how you are feeling. Possibly, put in a way that doesn't sound like you are dismissing the help that she/he is offering, but that you feel you need more help and would really appreciate it if the therapist of your group would go back to doing check ins? I hope this helped. I had also walked out of a doctors appt. once, because I couldn't stand the anxiety of waiting in a room full of men. I explained this to the secretary there, and they did understand. Sometimes it is very hard to say what you need, but that is also sometimes the only way to get the help you deserve.

Hi Amy I can appreciate what you are feeling, when my depression sets in I feel the same way. Just wanted to let you know you are not invisible.

Thank you. Yesterday was a difficult day, ended up chatting with a few suicide hotlines trying to get through the day. My doctor herself actually called this evening and left a message, so I'm hoping that if I call back in the morning I can get in to see her...without my entourage with me.

That's great AmyFed. Good luck tomorrow.