[Kharon97]

Ive done everything. OD, drowning, gassing myself, even cutting but nothing works out. I just gave up on trying to kill myself. So instead of trying to kill myself, im doing some of the green stuff... smoke.
yesterday I burned myself... I tried not to but it was overwhelming... its a chemical burn. I just got back from the dr for doing this stuff.

I want to talk to the shrink. Hes told me if I ever need to call, to do it. i havent, i wont. im on no types of meds . i feel depressed just thinking about the assult that I want to just die. Ive thought about just doing alot of street drugs, you know, the real deal and ODing on it..

[Kharon97]

ugh, im about to just blast up some music and clean untill i pass out

[mrnobody]

It sounds like this is a very serious medical situation. In your post you say "I want to talk to the shrink" but then you say "i haven't, I won't". Why not? What is there to lose by giving it a go?

I think I can identify with how you feel. I am invincible as well and I keep waking up every day. Go on, make the call. Make it the first step in your journey.

[Fizzyo]

Hi, it sounds like a call to the shrink is what part of you wants, and part is too scared,angry, or too 'something' to take the plunge.

Possible trigger:

Your urges to OD risks serious brain damage and you would still be here but dependent on others for basic things

I'm seriously trying not to be patronising but your situation is serious and I agree you have little to lose, and maybe something to gain.

Can you email the 'shrink'?would it be easier to write than speak?

Maybe send something like what you put here, the bit about not wanting to phone.

There's a lot of pain in this post, the 'shrink' should recognise and respect it.

Best of luck and I hope you can find some sort of peace.