[Ghost5]

Does anyone else have this? Having an ED as one of my DXs, it's one of my major problems, I just never feel as good as anyone else and I constantly think I have to be "perfect" to be acceptable. I find flaws in myself completely unacceptable and if Im not working 12hour days everyday,skinnier than everyone else then I'm a complete failure. It's very black/white thinking and I feel ties in with the fact I have very low self esteem?

[Fizzyo]

I have to challenge thoughts of worthlessness too, especially as I can no longer even work the few hours I was managing until 3 years ago.

I try to remember how passionately I believe (about other people) that a person is valuable just because of their humanity, not what they can or can't do. No person to me is worth more or less than another. Now I have to apply that belief to myself and learn to feel it.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Ghost5: Yes, the Skeezyks can relate to this... especially when I'm doing something I believe I should be good at. For instance, I've been a home bread baker for many years. I feel I should be an expert by now! If one of my breads doesn't turn out just about perfect, I berate myself up one side & down the other, as the saying goes. How could I have been doing this all these years & still turn out a failure like this! I try to be philosophical about it... but inside... I just burn with self-hatred & anger.

[WhatDayIsItAgain]

I like perfectionists because they are the opposite of what? ... sloppy/careless/inept?

I am very demanding of my own performance and selfevaluate obsessively anyway. *smile* ... and .... *teeheehee* I promise you are skinnier than I am already. So now we both can share my excessive grandoise self esteem... cause I have way tooooo much!!!! LOL

I call my thinking errors "maximizing and minimizing" but it means "black or white" thinking. Too much *unfairly burdened and incorrectly blamed * type self hatred is a thinking error. It could be worse, you could refuse your introspective recognition by being a criminal/jerk who never accepts responsibility for his/her actions and refuses to correct any error while humiliating/harming others for social status/ego/$ instead of improving yourself with self awareness and self control. I think so anyway.

Thank you.