[nearlyallie]

Sometimes I feel like I will never get better, it just hits me out of the blue and I don’t know what to do. I try to be strong for people and pretend like I am okay but I am scared of how they will react if they see the real me. This just feels life a never ending, vicious cycle.

[DesigningWoman]

But if they never see the real you, how can they help?

[Frankbtl]

Hi nearlyallie

Welcome to PC!!
I know that pretending that you're okay when you're not can be SO hard, take SO MUCH strength.........but you know what (??) admitting that you're not okay can take SO MUCH strength too. So thankyou so much for sharing with us, we're really privileged that you've managed to do that here
And now........not knowing the "people" you mean, so bear with me.........maybe you aren't giving them the chance to show how much they actually care about you..........because your feelings should matter to those who care about you, they should want to be there for you.
I know not all people are going to be like that but why jeopordise getting the actual caring and support of people who matter for the possible reactions of others who shouldn't be that important in your life?? You're "hurting", and that matters, you deserve caring and support
And.........you'll definitely find people on here to be caring and supportive, so I'm hoping you'll stick around..........where we can maybe offer you the place you need to be "not okay", maybe allow the real you to feel understood and cared about, maybe support you with/through some of the things going on for you, maybe help you reach out to some of those people in your life who can be there for/show how much they care about the real you.



Alison

[elevatedsoul]

no one ever sees the real me either.. i get it; it would be too difficult to try to deal with the reactions from everyone... its much easier to fake rather than confront..
doing this isn't good though... but i can't let anyone know the truth - the most i muster up to tell anyone is i suffer from MDD and PTSD - sometimes i just tell them its ADHD... but i never go into details, im just not ready for that...