[dexter]

I've been trying to fight from isolating myself because I know it is the most harmful thing my brain does to sabotage my well being.

I'm trying to keep talking to my coworkers and I invited one of them over tomorrow and I was actually looking forward to that.

So I guess the brain is able to call in reinforcements from other parts of the body when its own trickery isn't enough to keep me alone and hurting.

This morning I woke up with a hacking cough... No fever but the level of congestion concerned me after a few hours. So I went to the local care station and I have pneumonia.

So I'm home from work for the next few days, had to cancel tomorrow's visit (which I was REALLY looking forward to) and I'm already not sleeping from the depression now I can't lay down without amping up the coughing. (Sitting upright and still I get some relief).

[dexter]

And of course I had to cancel the appointment with my new T for tomorrow. Set up to see him on Tuesday though.

[guiltier65]

Dog Gone it Dexter, no wonder you couldn't sleep last night. I hope you get to feeling better soon. drink plenty of fluids and take care of yourself.

[dexter]

I am soooo freaking tired I can't keep my eyes open, trying to prop myself up, seems no good, I get some relief only if I am sitting completely upright. The slightest recline and I'm hacking again.

Hoping to just get through the day and maybe by tonight I'll be able to recline a hair just enough to close my eyes and relax and maybe sleep even if it is only in short spurts.