[Nimitri]

I feel like a worthless person because I feel bad. I should feel better. I have everything or nearly everything. I'm safe, yet this safety made me think "How is this justice? Why I should have it when so many others don't" and then I feel terrible because this are gifts from my mother with love and here I'm bemoaning and being ungrateful. And then I fear that something horrible is going to happen to me because karma and I don't want to suffer and lose all this love and help but I can't stop fearing the future.

I want to go to bed. I want to curl. I want to cry and cry and cry but I'm too ashamed to do it, even alone, because I wold be admitting that help is not enough, that everything is not fine when it should be fine and that I'm going to hurt those who are close to me who had to watch me suffer.

It's perfectly normal to feel sad and to cry at times - neither bad nor good . . . give yourself permission. Not allowing yourself to enjoy things because there is injustice in the world (and, yes, there is a lot of it) does not correct the situation. Give yourself permission to enjoy. And when you have an opportunity to make things better for others, then do so. And enjoy that as well.

How about volunteering and helping others less fortunate?

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[lavendersage]

your first post in this thread resonated with me so much... it keeps popping up in my head randomly throughout the day... how are you doing?

[elevatedsoul]

you are not worthless
it is the depression telling you those things...
i think sometimes we have to cry, it doesnt mean you are accepting that there is no help... you are just hurting and going through a really hard time... it doesnt make you a weak or bad person... i promise...
i know how you feel... try to be gentle with yourself, be kind to yourself...