Pain Induced Depression?

I have had depression since I was pretty little, and now I'm at a point where I pretty much don't produce any serotonin. I know that serotonin replacements like Luvox (unsure if I'm spelling that one right) help because I've tried them, but I can't find a doc in my area who will prescribe them because it's pretty much the same as ecstasy. I probably would buy some just to feel normal for a bit, but it's always cut with bathsalts and things, so I don't think it's a good idea.
Anyhow, I'm pretty sure my depression was induced by pain. The reason for my thinking is that as a child I had crippling headaches and digestive problems that left me crying when I ate or used the bathroom that went totally untreated. I was also abused, so I'm sure that's some of it too. But I've never not been in pain that I can remember aside from when I smoke a lot of pot or huff paint, or get black-out drunk. It gets better, and it gets worse, but it never goes away. I don't do any of those things anymore because I can't afford the pot and I don't want the negative health effects of other things.
What I wish is that I had a mental health doctor who would address my actual issues, and could do both the mental health piece and the pain therapy piece so I can actually get better for once. I've got other mental health issues, but the depression just seems to be my monster.

my cousin takes luvox for OCD...

why wont your doc prescribe it? its an SSRI and they are like the first drug they prescribe for depression...
there are lots of antidepressants to choose from though, have you asked your doc for a referal to a psychiatrist ?

are you on pain management?
Depression and Chronic Pain: Causes and Treatments

i cant recall any reason why they wouldn't prescribe an antidepressant while on pain management... or taking pain meds... atleast the SSRI class?

It's actually not an ssri, it's serotonin replacement. Most docs don't know the difference. My doc won't prescribe it because he thinks it's a pain to do so, I think. SSRI's don't do a thing for me because it blocks seratonin, a chemical I don't really produce, from being absorbed too fast. If I don't have the seratonin, it isn't going to work at all. People with OCD also don't produce a lot, which is why Luvox is prescribed. My cousin told me that if I'd just go in there and tell them that every time I see a red truck I have to clap my hands and spin 3 times, they'd prescribe it for me. lol, I'm just not sure I want to do that. I've only had 1 doctor willing to prescribe it for me, but he was in another state. This doctor I have now, knows the difference, but doesn't think it's worth the effort because it's technically a schedule 1 drug. I also have some drug and alcohol abuse in my past, so he's extra reluctant.

i didnt know that about luvox - everywhere ive looked classifies it as a SSRI - but i noticed that it says it is [Sigma-1]σ1 receptor agonist... is that what you mean?

maybe i should try luvox

i have never had any luck on other antidepressants...

only when they loaded on a bunch of antipsychotics is when i started seeing little relief in the depression

i also have been dx with substance abuse disorder but im hoping they took it off..
if they didnt maybe thats why my GP wont give me any klonopin

dealing with doctors can be such a pain in the butt :/

It really is. I'm not sure if I was Dxed with substance abuse. Maybe if I weren't so friggen honest with my doctors I'd have better luck, huh?
But yeah, that was what I meant. Agonist means it fills up the receptors to think they have the serotonin.

Aracnae, it sounds like a lot of your childhood pain could have been diet-induced, and perhaps still is. Research has found that 90% of a person's serotonin is created in the "gut", so this idea that low levels of serotonin in the body is not a brain issue. If you were eating things as a child that caused inflammation of your stomach and intestines, you probably developed "leaky gut" - yes, it's a real term and real health practitioners know about it. They just happen to a minority group. I really encourage you to Google the research and articles. You can heal a leaky gut with time and the right approach, but first you need to work with someone who even knows about (most doctors poo-poo the idea.) Also, just because you might eat something that might be "GOOD" for people (say, spinach), if you have a food intolerance you could be unknowingly making yourself ill. And by "ill," I'm referring to metabolic and mental issues, not a tummy or head ache.

Anway, if you are serotonin depleted, taking an SSRI or other would only be treating the symptom instead of the cause.

Hope that's helpful.

P.S. Just want to clarify - treating the symptom is OK, especially if needed to survive in the shorter or longer term - just getting to the root cause is preferable.

Thank you. I have had this suggested to me before by someone else. I eat a pretty strict diet now because I can't process anything that comes from an animal it seems, so the less animal products I eat, the better I feel. I will also bring it up to my doc. I have an appointment coming up, so I can ask her about it.