[JohnCrow]

I was feeling prettyy low last week

REALLY low

I had the black dogs on my heels and I was thinking "how bad can it hurt to just let go. Animals give up when they can take no more and let the predators take them"

Then a voice, clear as a bell, said in my head: "F*** that! Don't be sad, be angry. Life is not fair and you have been having a hard time. You DO NOT deserve this."

This was not god, or gods... this was part of me waking up.

Little background: I had just been informed I would not be getting this job I was perfect for. They felt I was not the person.

I know we are not supposed to take rejection in job interviews personally but it was me that applied, it was me that interviewed and it was me they said no to. I am damn well going to take that personally

Then I had another interview. And I decided, before I went in, I deserve this, I am the right person, I EARNED this.

First went well. Called back for second.

Now I had to bring my A-game. My arms are in agony (work accident at temp job), my stomach was killing me, I had a headache but, instead of having answers ready, I decided I, and I alone, was going to get this job

I had interviews with 2 people the first time and 4 the second. I thought the entire time "this is mine"

And it is

I got the job offer

And now, here on this site, I find an article about sugar triggering depression. And, whoa, my diet, as I check, is LADEN with it

So now the greatest stressor on my life is gone (no job) it is time to crank up the health

I don't think i will need to post my moods here for a while but, fair's fair, I will be return to be the shoulder to lean on, the hand that reaches out as best can and the ear you can bend because I know, if I feel down, I know those are always here for me

You guys here are better than you think, you do not deserve the pain depression brings and show that the number one trait of humanity, even in despair, is humanity itself

[Skeezyks]

Hello JohnCrow: The Skeezyks celebrates your success!

Congratulations and Bon chance. Damn straight you deserved it!

[dexter]

[Fuzzybear]