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So once again I am depressed. This time its because I am sooo stupid to actually believe I can have a good time without the world around me falling apart. I thought that tonight would be fun, with new experiences, but now its just led me back to the same dark hole it always does. People always fight when I have a good time nowadays and it ruins everything. So once again I am alone, with no one to talk to because my life is too complicated and triggering to deal with. Sadly I know that this will most likely be true for the rest of my life. Why do I try to be happy and have fun when nobody sees when I am sad or even confused. Why should I be happy when my family doesn't even understand me? I can't tell them anything anymore so why do I try to be a good boy and be happy. Why do I try?
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Oh...keep trying. For yourself. Because this feeling of imminent doom is a spiritual killer.
Isn't happy a better place to be???? It is hard for people that don't live with our ailments to understand. It hurts when they don't even attempt to educate themselves and they say their same "reassuring" words over and over again. Why are you blaming yourself for what happened tonight? |
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I am blaming myself because I made the choice to stay. I knew it would end like this but I stayed
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Was there a physical fight? Was it an argument? Did you provoke it somehow? Or do we blame ourselves just for being there?
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I was there, and it was kinda my fault, no one got physically hurt but it still hurt people. I know there was nothing I could have done but still
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(Hugs) jman.
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![]() What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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