[circles5]

hey,
well - i'm having a bad night.
i've taken a bunch of drugs ( not enough to kill me, unless i fall asleep)
So, i'll be fine.

But - i really think i need to talk to someone.
i've got anxiety disorders and depression..

I keep risking my life taking drug combinations, not to get 'high' ... but some other reason
Who do i talk to? i'm pretty sure samaritans can't help..
i won't talk to my therapist / pychiatrist about this as i think telling them will lead to sanctions + them labelling me as a 'druggie and taking me even less seriously than they do currently.

what do i do?

[elevatedsoul]

what kind of therapist do you have?
if you trust your therapist and they know you then its not a bad thing...
telling the psychiatrist is not always a good idea though because they treat you like **** in my opinion, my pyschiatrist treated me like i was a drug addict drug seeking son of a *****

but my therapist was loving and understanding and told me that im not doing anything wrong but truly i was being extremely careful and monitoring what i was doing

it depends on what you are doing, what you are taking, how much you are taking, how you are treating yourself and what you are expecting out of all of it...

at the time i started seeking treatment i started limiting everything i was doing, even though the psychiatrist labeled me as substance abuse / dependend and alocogolic...
the therapist said that i was ok, and that she doesnt see any reason for me to stop so imediately as what im doing doesnt seem to be indangeroung me and causingany problems but actually helping me to cope and get through the seriougs things i was going through )and still am going through(

so as for telling the psychiatrist becareful, they can be jerks!
the therapist can be extremely helpful depending on their specialtiy...

what are you taking? how much?

i absolutely am not in the same place i was at the time i was getting treatment but its half to thank for the half assed treament the stufipid pdoc wanted to give me, treat me like a dumb no good mofo and im sure to back the hell out and get away from everything you tell me

you are not a bad person for self medicatimg, you want to feel better, you deserve to feel better, what is not ok is for you to take too much of something and combiniation of something that will harm you and cause you damage...

if you are smoking weed, thats fine... if you are drinking some alcohol thats fine too - if you are drinking enough alcohol to burn your house down thts not fine... if you do a little heroin thats not bad, if you do enough to put you in a coma thats not good, too much amphetamine can blow your heart up, you mix all these things and you surely will not have a good time in the long run, what matters is your wellbeing, if you are no comfortable talking about it i will take a PM but im not a profeisional and i dont want you to rely on me because i am UNRELIABLE as i cant trust myself - i often change and cant control what im thinking or doing
but i have read many things and have done many things and maybe can help

give more information and i will try, your health and wellbeing is all that matters, not what you are taking or doing so much
pleause be well

[seesaw]

What's going on? Can you tell us what is upsetting you an we can respond in support?

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[elevatedsoul]

sorry about posting that, i sometimes dont mean exactly what i say, but you know what i mean... i think i need to sleep...
i just want you to be ok

[Fuzzybear]