[Marylin]

I am very tired and very depressed today,my mood is rock bottom,I feel awful,like I am in a deep ,dark ,pit,I can't seem to focus and the heat has got to me.I think I have heat exhaustion.

I did manage to go out,I returned some sandal that I had bought online that were too small to a store.Walking was difficult cos my legs are weak and my spine twisted.I had to sit down and have a coffee break before I could continue.
I also picked up my insulin from the pharmacy and went to see my mum,she was lovely to see but I was moody and irritable with her.

I was also despairing about world affairs and how corrupt dangerous people are the leaders of the world I read the bible and Jesus's words calmed me and bought me peace.Before that I had been arguing with customer services on the phone and getting angry and worked up.

I live alone and do not have family of my own or a partner so I feel lonely and I want love and companionship.I am so very afraid I will be alone for the rest of my life.I am too ill and disabled and fat no one would want to be with meI think and feel that all the time.

I wish I had someone to hold me and hug me!

Thanks for reading.
Marylinx

[Skeezyks]

[basicgoodness]

I hope you feel better tomorrow, Marylin.

[Marylin]

Thanks for your replies,I do feel better today mood wise though I am physically tired and I slept a lot during the day today,feeling drowsy still.
I've got all evening to get more rest.Tomorrow I am in all day until 3pm then I will go for a pub meal and to see a film at the cinema complex.
That should cheer me up a bit and be enjoyable!Get me out of the house and blow away the cobwebs!
I thank you both again for taking an interest in my posts Basicgoodness and Skeeyzks!
God bless you both!Hopefully I will speak to you both again!
Marylinx

[Clara22]

[Fuzzybear]

[basicgoodness]

Glad you're feeling better, Marylin. Sounds like a good plan for tomorrow. It's always good to get out of the house when you spend a lot of time there.

[Marylin]

I am up still ,it is 2am here in the UK,I napped on the settee from 7-10pm so am still awake now.I feel good having got some sleep.I am looking forward to the meal out later this evening and seeing a film, my niece was going to join me,however she has an exam on Wednesday that she must study for so will not be joining me.We will go together for a meal and film next Saturday after this one,though!I am looking forward to that,I have not seen my niece for almost two months due to her studying for exams.

I will probably go lie in bed soon and listen to the radio until I am sleepy again,I am in a good mood and feel chatty,there is no one about here in real life though so it is me talking to me again all on my lonesome!

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