[heat1994]

I came here because I need guidance and I honestly don't know what else to do. I don't want people to feel bad for me or treat me different in real life so I don't talk to anyone.

I'm 18 years old and I feel like I'm depressed. I've tried telling my parents, but they always think I'm just being ridiculous or overreacting. My problem is I used to be so social with people, never have an issue or anything. Now I seem to be questioning everything I say or even do. I always find myself just ripping myself apart just asking what is wrong with me. This might sound messed up, but I honestly only feel normal when I'm drunk. When I'm high, I feel awful, it's not even enjoyable because I just start thinking about everything that's wrong with me.

Now, I don't abuse drugs or drink, I only use them occasionally, so I do not believe that really is related...just thought it was worth mentioning. I feel like I just started overanalyzing everything I did and I don't know why. I used to be good at talking to people and now my first thought is, "wow they probably think I'm a freak."

I just don't get it. Maybe I am just overeacting, but I've been thinking like this for years now. I never used to be like this...I honestly just don't get it.

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this...I really appreciate it.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Heat1994.

Originally Posted by heat1994

I used to be so social with people...
I honestly only feel normal when I'm drunk...
I used to be good at talking to people...
I never used to be like this...

All these raise concerns. Here and other places online you can easily find non-diagnostic depression screening questionnaires (only a medical professional can diagnose).

PsychCentral Depression Quiz
Sanity Score Quiz

Do you have access to a primary care doctor?

Please make yourself at home here.

[Fizzyo]

[heat1994]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello & Welcome, Heat1994.

All these raise concerns. Here and other places online you can easily find non-diagnostic depression screening questionnaires (only a medical professional can diagnose).



Do you have access to a primary care doctor?

Please make yourself at home here.

I do, would my doctor be able to give me advice about this?

[Demunie]

Originally Posted by heat1994

I do, would my doctor be able to give me advice about this?

Sure - it's his job. He could refer you to a therapist, he can check if there are any physical reasons for how you feel, prescribe you medicine if necessary...
Do you know your doctor well?

Keep us updated!

[Fizzyo]

Originally Posted by Demunie

Sure - it's his job. He could refer you to a therapist, he can check if there are any physical reasons for how you feel, prescribe you medicine if necessary...
Do you know your doctor well?

Keep us updated!

I agree, your doctor is a good place to start.
S/he will be familiar with mental health issues, Mental ill health apparently accounts for about half of a primary care doctors workload in my country. (Or so I have heard).